Finding Your Way Through

At the suggestion of a friend I have opened up, “The Nature of Personal Reality” last night and began reading. Today I started on Seth’s introduction and encountered this, “What exists physically exists first in thought and feeling. There is no other rule.” This passage, and one from earlier, “Your conscious thoughts can be great clues in uncovering such obstructions” (obstructions defined as, “strongly negative characteristics present in your most intimate thoughts.”)

So I started thinking about what things I might be consciously thinking about. Asking myself if perhaps the things of which I am aware of are things I am thinking about. But then wondering if that could be considered a conscious thought, because it seems to me that a conscious thought is a thought I am actively directing. Unconscious thoughts would then be things I am thinking about that I am not directing. In other words, conscious thoughts are initiated, while unconscious thoughts just happen. But do both come from a point of awareness?

Anyhow one of the things I am aware of is my back pain. It comes, I have been saying, from sleeping on a fold-out sofa in an RV, on memory foam mattresses that loose all their resistance when they are warm. It has been warm these last few days, and as I recall, I always slept better when the room was cool and the mattresses were stiffer/firmer.

But if my physical pain existed first in thought and feeling, from what thought or feeling did it originate? I thought at first it came of my negative attitude towards my bed. Then I thought maybe it came from my dislike of having to put away my bed every morning and make it every night. Then I realized that it likely ultimately came from my negative attitude towards my current living circumstances/situation, living in this RV with my parents. When when I think these words it is like I am spitting them out. You can see now how the second quote applies, my conscious thoughts giving me clues here to these obstructions, these negative feelings.

What this all boils down to is that my bed literally cannot support me because I do not support it! As cute as this simple explanation is, if I go deeper I see that the reason I have this back pain is because I have not been accepting things as they are. I have not, do not and am not yet, loving and accepting my living circumstances/situation as they are. Instead I am railing against it – resisting it. It is the conflict from this resistance that is creating the physical pain I am experiencing. I bet if I dug a little deeper I could even figure out what lower back represents according to someone like Louise Hay in, “You Can Heal Your Life.” I may come back to that. But I’ll bet it’s related!

The question is, how do I fix this? What solution(s) can I try to address what is essentially the energetic cause of this physical pain? I have learned from the teachings of Abraham I can not jump from from where I am, in anger and hatred and resistance, to love. Too far to go. It seems to me what I can do is start to bless my bed, every night as I make it, and every morning as I put it away. Furthermore I can bless this RV and my current living circumstances/situation, every time I exit or enter the motor home. Finally I can be thankful – I can practice gratitude. I can be grateful that the RV has given me a place to live, a roof over my head as it were, and I can be thankful that I have a bed to sleep on. I can show appreciation for the fold-out sofa, for the memory foam mattresses, for my sheets, for my blankets, and for the RV itself.

I think gratitude is so important because it helps to dissolve negativity. Blessing something and being thankful for it is the acid that will eat away all the negativity around an issue. But it is a gentle acid. It helps the negativity to be gently released, to just effortlessly come free of whatever it is tightly wound around. Going after negativity with negativity may remove some of the negativity you are attempting to remove, but will almost certainly leave some behind. As always, flow not force is the key.

Finally an “attitude of gratitude” is, I think, the first step towards acceptance. This isn’t the same as surrender or giving up. Acceptance is a way of acknowledging things as they are and being willing to leave them like that. You do not wish they were something else, you don’t try to force them to change – you take them as they are. Acceptance of a thing leads to love. You can not love something you do not appreciate, and you can not love something you do not accept. To get to acceptance, you must go through appreciation AKA gratitude, and acceptance AKA allowance.

Acceptance AKA allowance is important because it puts you in the position of conscious choice. You are not simply reacting to something that comes into your experience. Something comes into your experience, and you choose how you will respond. You can fight against it – resistance – and this will create conflict in your life. It will take the power from you, and place it with whatever it is you are resisting. Basically you choose whether or not something that comes into your life will have power over you or not. You choose how to perceive it. You choose how you will label it. You can label it as negative and resist it – denying that it is there. Or you can accept that it is there, allow it to be as it is, then decide how you will perceive it.

To use my own life as an example, I attempted to head out on my own via bicycle in 2016 and then ended up coming back here, living in my parent’s RV. Things came together for me to go to Clark College. If I looked at things that way, this whole circumstance/situation has been a blessing. But living in the RV has meant I have no personal space, no hot showers, and I sleep on a heavily worn/used fold-out couch, on two memory foam mattresses, one a topper and one thicker, but neither of them very dense foam. I have to make my bed every night and put it away every morning. Up until now I have seen this as a curse. I have been resisting it. My resistance of it has not changed it at all. But it has caused me to be unable to perceive my circumstances/situation as a blessing. It has likely also lead to the physical issues I have been experiencing, including my back pain.

If I had instead accepted the RV and my bed, allowing these things to be as they are and not wishing they were anything else (resistance), I would have been able to practice gratitude, and I likely would not be experiencing these physical symptoms. The RV and my bed will be the same either way. I can get angry at these things all I want – they are still what they are – I can not change them by my negativity towards them. I can also appreciate these things – again they are still what they are – I can not change them by my positive attitude towards them.

Or can I? I suspect that things can change only when we are in a state of appreciation and allowance, because they have to match the energy we are giving out. In other words our attitude, feelings and thoughts draw things to us. Then our attitude, feelings and thoughts keep these things with us or help us to release them and let them go.

Something bad remains bad as long as we feel negativity towards it. Often our negativity towards it will make it worse. The molehill becomes a mountain. The princess feels the pea no matter how many mattresses are on it, and the pea gets larger and larger, even as it remains the same size. But something bad can not remain bad if we feel positive towards it. This means that the only way to change something undesirable which has come into our life experience is to love and accept that thing as it is, and to find a way to bless it and be thankful for it.

In my case it would be hard to love and accept my bed as it is, and I am not sure I could see it as a blessing, much less be thankful for it. But I can love and accept the RV and my current living circumstances/situation as they are. I can think about how this thing that has come into my life experience has been a blessing to me, and I can show appreciation for the ways it has been a blessing. That will, indirectly, allow me to bless and show appreciation for all the other aspects of this experience, including my bed. I can even find my way to appreciation and blessing for these physical symptoms, including my back pain, because it has given me a point through which I could gain the knowledge I now have. I might even be able to apply that to my bed and directly find a way to bless and appreciate it.

When you cut yourself there is pain that directs your attention to where the damage has occurred. Likewise my back pain has drawn my attention to where this damage has occurred, AKA the likely energetic cause of the physical back pain symptom. OK, let’s check in with Louise Hay:

“Lower Back – Fear of money. Lack of financial support.

Middle Back – Guilt. Stuck in all that stuff back there. ‘Get off my back,’

Upper Back – Lack of emotional support. Feeling unloved. Holding back love.”

The pain is mostly in my middle and lower back. Spot on as usual! Gonna have to think about, “fear of money” though. In what way am I afraid of money? How do I work through that?

Remember that you choose what comes into your life experience, and you also choose how you will respond to what comes into your life experience. Resistance AKA Denial will give power to a thing, causing conflict between it and you and creating undesirable energetic causes resulting in undesirable physical symptoms. Acceptance AKA Allowance will give power to you, causing no conflict between it and you and creating desirable energetic causes resulting in desirable physical symptoms.

If something has come into your experience you no longer want to be there, the first step is to accept it as it is, allowing it to be as it is. Stop resisting it. The next step is to bless it in order to release any negativity wound tightly around it. You have to release it and let it go – all of your negativity – your anger, bitterness, hatred, etc. You may need to forgive someone or something. Once you have managed this, you have to see it differently. Up until now you saw it as something bad. You have to find some way to bless it. Did it teach you something? Is it a part of a larger thing for which you can show appreciation and be thankful?

If you are unable to really get behind the appreciation, blessing and gratitude, just say the words. Repeat them every time you think about this thing or encounter it or are reminded of it. Repeat it until it becomes true. Always allow yourself to feel what you feel – do not repress or resist your feelings! Flow not force. In time, through gentle reinforcement, you may find that you can appreciate, bless or show gratitude towards this thing, either indirectly or directly.

It will be interesting to see how I can apply these things in the next few days and what the results will be.

Please Send Loving Energy To John of God

I recently wrote a post, since moved, that mentioned this man and a recent accusation. I have not looked further into this. But I realized that my negative energy is only adding to the negative energy of the situation. What the man needs is our love, whether he is innocent or not.

This man helped Wayne Dyer to heal from his cancer, and he also helped Debbie Ford heal from hers. He has been instrumental in helping to heal many of our spiritual teachers, and many, many others besides. He is a real, legitimate healer who has had a definite positive impact on many, many lives.

Please spend a few moments with me now, sending him your blessings, your love – sending him light and positive energy. May that dissolve any darkness either in John of God himself or in those involved in accusing him. May what is best and highest come from this situation.

Thank you.

I Love and Accept You As You Are

Stop whatever you are doing right now and find a mirror. Look into it, right in your eyes, and say these words, “I Love and Accept You Are.” Again. Now say, “I Love and Accept Myself As I Am.” One more time – you can do it! Let’s close with this, “I Deserve To Be Loved.” Repeat. Now I have something to tell you…

I Love and Accept You As You Are

I mean this. Visualize me looking right in your eyes and saying these words to you.

I Love and Accept You As You Are


You Deserve To Be Loved

I want you to understand something. This is very hard for me to do. I am not someone that anyone would call affectionate. I don’t like to have my picture taken. I don’t like to hug anyone. For years I have hidden in my shell, rarely if ever coming out. For at least 25 years I have spent Valentine’s Day alone. On top of this I am not just saying these words to people you would label as “good” or “deserving.” I am saying these words to everyone in the world, without reservation or expectation of any kind. Everyone.

Why? Because nobody was ever born evil. Nobody was ever born bad. Those who have committed horrible crimes that we have locked away were not always the monsters they are seen to be now. Somewhere along the way they began to believe that they were bad or evil or somehow wrong. Or maybe they never felt that way about themselves, having been so badly damaged by the circumstances in their lives, usually in childhood, that they were corrupted and twisted into what they are now.

Here’s the thing… Throwing someone in jail, or strapping them to the electric chair. does not affect any positive, meaningful change in the person. In order for a person to change for the better they have to want to. That’s the first step. But how many men and women have walked out from behind bars into a world that sees them only as ex-convicts? How long can a person last against the onslaught of so many people telling them they are bad, scum, evil, etc? It would take someone of incredible strength of will to get through that. But most of us are fragile, tender, especially if we have begun to change ourselves.

The next step is up to us. For our own good and theirs we have to forgive. We have to let go. We have to help people change their perceptions of themselves by changing our perceptions of them. Do you know how many criminals would end up back in jail if every cop in the city in which they were released called them citizen or by their first name instead of convict or ex-con? Probably a fraction of those who end up back there now. That number would be further reduced if friends and family believed in them, saw only good in them, created and enforced a reality in which this person has changed for the better. That number would be eliminated if everyone that person encountered did the same.

This is how a person is reformed. Their only job is to make the decision to change for the better, believing and acting as if they already have. The rest is up to us.

So once more…

I Love and Accept You As You Are

This is my Valentine’s Day gift to you. I believe in you, I see you as a beautiful person, without limitations, free to love and accept yourself, and by doing so, freeing yourself to love and accept others. Now take this gift I have given you and pass it on to as many people as you can today. Let’s fill this Valentine’s Day with love, for ourselves, for each other and the world on which we live.

God and Satan Are Both Tulpas!

If you are new to this blog then you may not be aware of the unique experience I had last year. To sum up, I manifested and fell in love with a Tulpa. Back then then I had a blog entitled, “Romance Beyond Reality.” It detailed my experiences during this time.

A Tulpa is in overly simplified terms a thought form. But it is really much more than that. As I understand it, anytime you believe strongly enough in something, to the point you would or actually do shed blood for it, and you put your feelings into it, such as the common feeling that your belief is right, you create a Tulpa. The more people who share your beliefs, feel strongly in them, and are hurt and killed for them, the more powerful and established the Tulpa becomes.

Tulpas are manifested energetically. Not sure how they are given life, so it is more accurate to say they are manifested. In general they are not tangible to what you call reality, what you think of as the real world around you. The Tulpa exists in your mind, or as a feeling, a sense of connection, an impression of something other, something like that.

Some Tulpas can and do briefly manifest in physical form. Bigfoot and many, if not all, alien encounters are examples of these. Ghosts and the paranormal may be more. But chief among them are any God or gods or goddess or goddesses, any being given some idea of form that humans worship.

Think about this a moment… Christians believe in God, and it seems natural to assume and believe that if God exists so does Satan. Satan is the Christian scape goat. The cause of all suffering, the root of sin. Humans are infected creature, imperfect, powerless, not divine in any way shape or form. We must be saved, must ask forgiveness of our sins, must repent, in order to be “saved.”

Here’s the problem… Satan would have to be like Santa Claus (another Tulpa.) Somehow he would have to be omniscient and omnipotent to travel between billions of humans and tempt them to sin. Now maybe you would argue that this isn’t how it works. It’s the fallen angels doing his bidding. OK, this could be true, but it is unlikely. Because Satan is God’s opposite, right? Imperfect, in fact perfectly imperfect, destructive, in fact perfectly destructive. How can an imperfect, destructive being create a perfect network that instantly tempts people all over the world, somehow knows when to tempt them, and does everything else it would have to do to make this work? How could a destructive being create anything, much less keep from destroying it, because remember he is destructive by nature.

How powerful is Satan anyhow? As powerful as God? How? Why would God give Satan that power? If God didn’t give it to him, then Satan, as Lucifer, was already as powerful as God, so why would he seek more power or even desire it? While we’re on that note, as Lucifer was in Heaven, a perfect place, where did sin come from? Don’t like that question do you? It is impossible to have imperfection in perfection. So Heaven is either perfect, or it is not. True or false.

Let’s not forget everything else Christians call Satanic. Astral Projection. Out of Body Experiences. Near Death Experiences. The Astral Planes. Lucid Dreams. On and on. Did Satan create all these? Perhaps he stole control from God, maybe God created these. But if God is all powerful then nobody could take anything away from Him. Again true or false. So perhaps God have Satan power over all these realms. Well then if God created them, they aren’t Satan’s, so they aren’t evil, and that means roughly 50% of all New Age literature is discussing other parts of God creation. Satan is just the unfortunate boss. But why would God give him that power?

Furthermore why did God send Satan here, to earth? God knows everything, right? So He would know that Satan would tempt Eve and ultimately cause the fall of man. Why not cast Satan elsewhere, to another world? For that matter, if we all got on a colony ship, no books, no cloths, our minds wiped, where generations later all memory of our religions and beliefs would be gone by the time we reached an alien world, would sin still exist there? Is Satan’s power limited only to earth, to the solar system, to the galaxy, or the entire universe? Again how powerful is he?

Listen up and listen well. God and Satan exist, because thousands of Christians have bled and died for their belief that they do. This has created two very powerful Tulpas. Jesus could also be one. He may have originally just been a teacher trying to help people. But we turned him into a Tulpa. Or he could have been created by the beliefs of the Jewish people in a savior, which would also mean he could be God’s son. The point is that all these religions icons in Christianity are Tulpas. Not necessarily the men or the prophets. But certainly God. Heaven, Jesus, The Holy Spirit, Satan, Hell and the Lake of Fire. The likelihood that Jesus will return is slim, but if he does it will be because of Christian belief. Most importantly of all however, is that sin is also a Tulpa. It does not exist.

Buddha had his idea of what causes sufferings. Christians believe it is sin. Here is the truth. You are a sinner only if you believe you are, and you are suffering only if you believe you are. Granted, if someone ties you to a chair and tortures you this brings you suffering. But ultimately you are the one, whether you were aware of it or not, that put you in that place. Oh yeah and while I’m on this note, fate, destiny and karma also all exist simply because people believe in them.

The truth is simply this, as I have said before. We create our reality. Or to be more accurate, we manifest our reality. Not sure how the creative forces work, but if you invest the energy in the forms of sex, believe, and feeling (love) to manifest the reality for yourself and your spouse of a child (assuming opposite sex couple here), then you will have a child. But you didn’t create the child or give it life. You manifested its reality. Some other force is behind the scenes here. I call it The Source. But I am a former Christian and I have to be careful not to start some new religion or create any new Tulpas. It is possible for a former member of a religion to fall into old patterns.

I don’t know who or what this Source is but I think I have a glimmer of an idea as to what it wants. First off this source is not driven by human concerns (another flaw of the Tulpas in the Christian faith.) It seems to be creative by nature, but for unknown reasons. It does not get jealous, it gave humans the ability to have their own religions and manifest their own figureheads. It gamely gave God and Satan life

Secondly while the Source can’t be said to want anything (implying it has lack), it is not good for us to dishonor or abuse the gifts it has given us. When we give our power over to some other agency, call it God, Fate, Destiny or The Ascended Masters, we dishonor our nature and make our lives harder for ourselves.

On the other hand when we accept our natural gifts, to manifest for ourselves what we want, we honor the Source. We make our lives easier for ourselves. We are happier. We have the opportunity to experience the absolute best life for ourselves.

So thirdly its probably a safe bet the the Source is loving. It cares for us and wants the best for us. But not in any sort of human, attached way that brings suffering or implies lack or need or powerlessness. Not sure how this works, all that can be surmised is that creation by nature is positive. Not good or bad – no judgements here. Positive. Positivity comes more easily, naturally and freely than negativity. But as the Source does not discriminated, the same natural gifts we have can be twisted by others and ourselves to a negative experience of reality. The universe, the mechanisms that run everything, do not discriminate. They give you whatever you ask for, even if you didn’t say a word. They go by what you feel the most, believe in the most – in short put the most energy into.

Oh and fourthly, it’s safe to say the Source is not perfect, nor imperfect. It simply is. Where there is perfection there is no room for growth. Where there is imperfection there is negativity. Where either of these exist judgment must also exist. But the Source does not judge or discriminate. It simple exists, creates and loves, without any attachment, bias or discrimination. These are my perceptions of it.

So lets change gears here and talk about the world, how imperfect, evil or cold it may seem to you. The world, reality, is, more than likely, very much like the Source, or could even be the same thing. In other words it is positive by nature, loving and creative. That is the real world out there you are in interacting with. The world is not against you, nothing is. But you create that reality for yourself, consciously or subconsciously.

An example… A man, a father, beats his wife and his son, abuses his daughter. We collectively look at the man and what do we feel? Hate. Strong hate, strong feelings. What do we say? He is a monster. Inside the man’s head what is happening? He sees himself as a drunk, a failure, worthless or maybe even a monster. He created this reality for himself, and we enforced the creation of this reality. We helped to manifest this monster.

The man’s son is thinking that when he grows up he will never be like his dad. Again strong feelings, hate, shame, injustice and more. The Source does not discriminate. It doesn’t respond to words as much as feelings, beliefs. Right now the boy is feeling worthless, shame, guilt. He is hating, investing strong feelings. The boy grows up, gets married, beats his child and his spouse, the cycle continues. Because the boy investing his feelings in a negative reality, not a positive one.

How could the cycle have been broken? By imagining his father sober, talking to his wife, getting help, being happy, investing in that. Feeling forgiveness instead of hate, thinking about what his father must be thinking, how he must feel about himself, and through understanding find a way to love his father. To smile at him even as his dad strikes him. To continue to see this beautiful reality he has manifested for his father, for his mom, his sister, his family. No matter how bad things got, to be able to hold on to that, unshakable. Very difficult. But it will affect the needed change and break the cycle of abuse. It will also help the young man. Because abuse can twist or break a person, especially if it comes from a trusted person, a loved one. Most if not all of humanity’s issues can be traced back to twisted, broken people.

The point I am making here is very simple, as all profound statements probably are. Sin only exists for Christians because they believe it does. You are not a sinner by nature. Nobody is born a sinner. Nobody needs saving. You are only powerless because you believe you can’t change anything. I know because I used to hold this belief. I used to say, “What can I do about it? Nothing. Maybe someday if I have enough money…” Bullshit. You can do something about it, right now. But it will require effort, energy, dedication and hard work. Worried about all the homeless in America? Use your imagination to create, thereby manifesting, a reality where everyone has a home, occupation of some sort, food, all needs met. etc. Believe it, feel it. Get others together and share your vision. Collectively believe it. Feel it. Even if you grow old and die together, never seeing what you imagined manifest in your reality, never, ever doubt. Trust and believe, know that the reality you envisioned does exist, did the instant you imagined it, and is, over some undetermined amount of time, manifesting, bit by bit, in this reality.

There are factors at play here I don’t fully understand. Perhaps there are more people envisioning an opposite reality? If there are a dozen of you manifesting a positive reality of no homelessness, and a million homeless who believe and feel that this state is their reality, you are going against the flow, pushing up hill. The instructions have been sent and will execute, long after you and everyone who invested their energy in your reality have turned to dust, so you may never live to see it, but it is created the instant you imagine it, and is from that moment on manifesting in some time frame beyond human understanding.

One of the main issues we as humans have to deal with is our religions telling us we are sinners, thereby creating sin and the existence of evil and negativity in our world. Truly Christians create their own hell and their own savior to save them from it! But these beliefs infiltrate society and even those who don’t aren’t Christians are affected. That is why the world seems to be getting worse. In truth the world is neither good nor bad, neither for nor against. It is, like the Source is. Good, bad, an anything in between are all created by us. In nay case Christians believe in some sort of final judgement or end time and evil running rampant basically. There are millions of them out there, so they have actually created this reality for everyone on this planet. Everyone that is, except me and anyone else who refuses to invest any energy in it.

How this will all play out I have no idea. I can’t force change on anyone. Killing Christians enforces their beliefs, it does not destroy them, and it enforces the negativity that this religion and many others have brought into the human experience. I can only invest energy in manifesting a positive reality for civilization, one where we live in harmony with ourselves and the planet. I can change myself, change the negative self-talk I have programmed myself with, based on what others have told me and I came to accept as truth, since I was little. I can see others as changed. I can honor the Source in this way.

I can see my time here on earth as an adventure and a positive experience. So this is what choose to do. I can look forward to exploring all the realms of the afterlife. I really am excited to see the Halls of Valhalla, the Elysium Fields and Heaven. But I know that these are the creations of man. I have chosen to stay outside of these for my afterlife. I have chosen instead to be free, to go where I will, visit the Source, explore the Astral Planes, spend time in the Inner Library.

I choose to believe that I am an unlimited, powerful being. I can imagine what I want for myself and others and invest my energy in manifesting these realities. So this is what I have chosen to do. To accept the gift I have been given. To create and realize my own dreams. I create and realize my own reality. You know what the funny thing is? The cherry on top? I do those things others see as sin less now, as someone who no longer identifies themselves as a Christian, as someone who is no longer a Christian, than I ever did before. If that’s not proof of the truth I have spoken here I don’t know what is.

Save this blog post. Print it out. Share it. Take back control of yourself and your world. Not by violence, not with judging or condemnation. Simply by changing yourself and how you see the world. By imagining the reality you want to manifest for yourself, your family and the rest of the human race. Doing so out of love born from understanding and with absolute positivity. Those of us who do this are the ones behind the curtain. Our silent revolution manifests a positive, wondrous and beautiful reality for the entire human race.