Own Your Life

I was watching Law of Attraction in Action 11 today, and heard an account from a father about his “special needs” daughter (I place “special needs” in quotes because I want to be clear it is a label, a term, constructed by man to classify something that is not understood.)

This father worried he may be doing too much or too little for his special little girl, and Abraham, through Esther Hicks, tried to make something clear, without stating it directly (I may refer to Abraham as they after this, because they describe themselves as a collection of consciousnesses.)

Abraham basically tells this father that his daughter chose her physical form. But more than that, she chose him to be her father, she chose her mother, she essentially designed the life she would experience from a non-physical perspective, her place of alignment and power.

In other words, to quote Abraham, “We choose by default” while we are focused here physically (that is the term Abraham uses to describe our experience of physical bodies.) We generally respond to something we don’t like and as a result draw more of that experience to us.

These issues do not exist when we are not focused physically. As I understand it, through my reading but not through any direct experience, when we are non-physical we are already in alignment with our Higher Self. We choose consciously, with full awareness.

I think what Abraham was telling this father is that his daughter saw everything that would happen to her when she chose the form she would have and the people she would be born to. She saw what was most likely to happen under those circumstances and in that situation, and she chose this with full awareness and consciousness.

In other words nothing her father or mother could ever do would have been unforeseen. So there was literally no way for them to mess things up for her. Even if they screwed up so badly she ended up dead, she already knew about the possibility of this occurring.

She already saw, even before she was born, what her parents would do, how they would respond, how they would treat her, what medications she would be introduced to, the risks she would encounter, the struggles she would endure – everything.

If you are wondering how this is possible, it is very simple. Time can only be experienced physically. There is no progression of time outside the physical. It simply does not exist. In our physical forms we see it as a linear progression. Non-physically it is happening all at once. How that works is beyond physical understanding. At least its beyond mine at this moment.

Well I took the long way around to get to what I wanted to talk about. But the implications of this is staggering. Let’s just assume, for the moment, that what Abraham says is true. That we exist in some non-physical way before we are born into this world, and we consciously choose, with full awareness, the physical lives we will experience.

That means that everything that happens to us (or rather that we say or think of as having happened or happening to us) everything, we chose. If we were born to abusive parents, we chose that. If we were raped, we chose that. If we were murdered, we chose that. There are no exceptions to this. Everything we perceive to be bad or good in our lives is there by our choice alone. Even if it seems forced on us, we chose it.

That might sound horrific to some. Some may be offended by the very thought of this. I see it as empowering. It means I can own everything about my life I like or dislike. I can take full responsibility. I chose this life, and all its possible permutations. Nobody can force anything on me, because I already chose a life where those particular people would likely force those particular things on me.

But it goes much further than this. In fact, I am not sure I can properly express to you its full implications. Assuming what Abraham teaches is true, it means that even before I came into physical form I chose the people who would be my family, my parents, brothers, sisters, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins – how many of each or even if would have any and which ones. The beliefs, mindsets and religions they would have, if they had any and in what amount. The places we would live, the cities I would live and work in, even down to the details of the library I would have access to, if I had a library or not, and the people working there, as well as if and when I would move and experience other locations.

I could go on but hopefully you are beginning to see the implications of this. We can barely even grasp it from a physical perspective. That our lives were custom designed by us before we were even born. What I want to talk about now, the main point of this whole article, is what it means.

It means that I have no right to blame anyone for anything undesirable in my life. It means that the parents of a psychopathic murderer can stop blaming themselves for creating such a person. Their only responsibility is bringing this person into the world. They came into physical focus knowing that they would have such a child. But that child came into physical focus knowing exactly what it would be, and nothing the parents could have done would have changed that.

The child in our hypothetical example chose exactly the people he wanted and knew well before hand every nuance of how they would raise him. So the parents can stop blaming themselves. We are not responsible for the actions of our parents or our children. We are responsible only for our own actions.

It means all blame can go right out the window. We can’t blame others or God for the circumstances or situations of our lives, because we chose those exact circumstances and situations. If there is a destiny, fate or purpose to our lives, we chose that too. We chose the time we would be born into, the place we would grow up, the place we would live, and even the time and place of our death, or rather the time we shift focus away from the physical.

Yes, it means we do know the time and place of our death, we just don’t remember it, so it seems like it surprises us. But Death, that grim specter so many fear, is responding to our summons, it is not the other way around. He comes at the exact time and place we have called him, and his only duty is to help us transition from a physical focus to a non-physical focus (of course Death is likely not an actual entity, just a process or stage of physical life.) It also means that we can live as long as we like physically, but for reasons we only know non-physically we choose a predetermined set of years.

What it means to me personally is that I can stop kicking myself. I did not screw up my life. How could I screw up my life? It is impossible for me to screw it up, because everything is playing out exactly like I chose even before I started living this life. I am playing my part to perfection, every mistake I make, or rather, everything I do that I perceive to be a mistake, is one I chose to make! If I am a lazy fuck up, I chose to be a lazy fuck up! I can never, and will never, be less or more than I already chose to be.

That is why I see it as empowering. Some part of me feels like I screwed up. I waited too long to meet someone and start a family. I have no desire to work for someone else at some crappy job that leads nowhere. I am 40 years old and still living in the vicinity of my parents. I am about to bicycle down the coast, a 280 pound overweight and out of shape man with only foodstamps for food. To just about anyone’s ears it sounds like a horrible decision. But if I do it, I chose to do it. If I don’t, I chose not to do it. Whatever I do now in the physical, I chose in the non-physical. I can’t mess it up.

There is a freedom in this. Even though it may seem as if the course has already been pre-programmed, I can still operate under the very real illusion of free will. I know that I am exactly as free as I wanted to be before I started this journey. I will never want more freedom than I have. So I am not trapped at all. I am not consigned, destined or fated to anything that I have not chosen to be. Even when I take my trip, if I get mugged and everything is stolen, that is an experience I have chosen. I already knew well ahead of time the circumstances and situations of my trip and the people I would encounter.

How does this tie in with manifestation? I think it works like this… You have already designed the full extent of the bad and good (or what you would perceive to be bad or good) while physical. Following the desires of your heart is going towards the full extent of the good you have already assigned to yourself. Denying the desires of your heart is going towards the full extent of the bad you assigned to yourself. Life will always be exactly as enjoyable as you choose it to be in this moment.

For me, if I have not chosen an experience of getting mugged and having everything stolen from me on my trip, this will not happen. If instead I have chosen to meet awesome and interesting people, to find help as needed, and to enjoy myself, this is what I will experience. I can never experience being mugged and robbed unless I already chose it before I came into this life, and now choose to focus on the possibility of this happening to me or how I don’t want it to happen to me.

So while I may not remember exactly what awaits me on my trip, I know there is nothing to fear, because I have chosen all the circumstances and situations of my life, and whatever happens to my physical form is within the range of what I would perceive to be bad or good. It will never get worse than what I chose, it can never get better than what I chose. I designed it all, with full awareness and consciousness, for reasons I do not remember. When I leave the physical I will remember everything, and I will have done with my life exactly what I intended to do with it.

What it amounts to is that I can either enjoy the ride or suffer through it. Either way I will leave the physical having experienced and learned everything for which I came into it. There is no failing grade. So I may as well focused on what I desire, what fills my heart with joy, what makes me happy. Follow my heart, my intuition, the dictates of my conscience. Realizing there is no need for me to suffer, suffering is a chosen response to circumstances and situations I already picked out.

If I picked it out I may as well own it and take responsibility for it. I may not be able to control everything that happens. But I can take comfort knowing I chose it, and I can continue to choose my response to it. Also the more things I choose, by focusing on them, that empower me and bring me joy, the better my experience of life will be. It is all up to me, nothing can truly be forced on me, nothing can happen that is better or worse than what I have already chosen. I am free to take whatever comes at me in whatever way I wish. So I can stop kicking myself and start enjoying myself.

OK, I am starting to ramble and get sleepy. I hope you are starting to see how amazing this is, all its implications. You are not lost unless you wanted to be. If you don’t fit, or haven’t found the place you fit yet, that is because you did not want to. If you are alone you wanted to be alone, or you wanted to wait for the right person, and experience what happens when they come into your life.

You do belong, you do matter, you are worthy. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you, whatever you may be experiencing in your physical form that you may perceive to be undesirable. You are exactly how you wanted to be, and experiencing exactly what you came here to experience. The only question is… Will you embrace it or resist it? How will you choose to respond?

Also yes, you can apply this even to the government that rules you and the laws it requires you to follow. You chose all of that, and you chose knowing what would happen if you broke the law or obeyed it. You may even have chosen ahead of time if you would break the law or obey it. So you can’t get mad at your government, because you chose it, one way or another!

The Only Thing Between You and Your Desire Is You

In the past few days I have become aware of something, probably helped by doing the 40-Day Prosperity Plan as instructed by John Randolph Price in, “The Abundance Book.” I have summed it very simply in the title of this article. The only thing between you and something you desire is you.Collectively we humans as a race believe that some will have more than others. The natural extent of this is that some must be poor if others are rich. So we have poor people and rich people. We have the homeless and those who have homes. The unemployed and those who have jobs.

We also believe that to go somewhere, from Point A to Point B, we must travel. We must use something, be it our legs, a bicycle or some motorized transport, be it animal or mechanical. We believe, in short, in the separation between where we are at this moment in physical time and space and where we would like to go.

We also believe, as I have talked about before, in the concept of earning money. But it goes deeper than that. We believe there must be an economy, and that it is somehow bad if there is not one. We believe in trading for goods and services, something of equivalent value. We believe in something called money that has an agreed upon value which can purchase things for us.

As a result we believe we must earn things, work for them. Even those who steal believe that the only way to get something legitimately is to earn it or work for it, and they are choosing not to do so. In some cases they may not have a choice. What if they do not have the money with the collective agreed upon value for whatever it is they need or want? What if they are starving and have no money for food? Cold but have no money for clothes?

By our beliefs as a society we perpetuate a myth, and that myth is that there is something between ourselves and what we desire. It could be distance, it could be the need for an intermediary. But there is always something between you and your desire. That is the myth, and it is a lie.

You are made of the same stuff of the Universe itself. Energetically and even physically in some aspects. Who you really are inside, your Higher Self, your Soul, is actually the Source individually manifested as you, as your physical body. Even your psychical body is energetic before it is physical. Everything in the physical is an illusion. Distance, time – all of these things are illusions. They are physical constructs.

This may be hard for you to understand, so I will simplify it for you. There is a place you want to go. You believe you are in one location in physical space at this physical time, and the place you want to go is at another physical location which would take a certain amount of physical time to get there. If you were to pull out a map you could show me where you are and where this place is that you want to go. You could show me the miles, talk about speed limits and traffic conditions. As far as you are concerned it is very straightforward.

I tell you that it is only your belief in travel, in distance between you and where you want to go, and traveling as the intermediary that will bring you there, that makes it so. If you were able to free yourself of this belief, which is also the collective belief of human society, and just decide to be where you want to go, I guarantee that you would simply show up there. In the blink of an eye, as quick as a thought.

The reason you would be able to do this is because you believe you are here, at this location, right now, and just as you can be here, right now, you can simply be there, in the very next moment from now. Maybe even in the same moment. As I have not figured out how to free myself of these beliefs to practice this myself, I have no idea how it works. But I know it works. It just requires a different way of thing about being somewhere, a removal of the belief in the need for the intermediary of travel.

Likewise the only thing keeping food from starving people is humanity’s collective belief that A. Some have less and some have more and B. An item of equivalent value is needed to trade for something like food. The homeless and poor have little of equivalent value. The homeless and poor believe this, and so it is true. You believe it, and so it is true. The rest of humanity believes it, and so it is true.

But it does not have to be this way. Just as in our example of being in one place then being in another, all that is needed is to remove the intermediary of trade from the equation. The homeless and poor desire food, the next moment they have food. Or even at the same moment of their desire. It can work that way. Humanity just has to collectively stop believing in the separation between a person and something they want, and the need for the intermediary of trade to get it.

You want to help the homeless and the poor? First of all stop seeing them as somehow less than any others. Throw out the labels of homeless and poor. Throw out any belief or idea that there are some with more and some with less. Just throw it out. Next get rid of the idea that things have to be earned, paid for, stolen or worked for. Get rid of the idea that there is any need for anything between someone and what they need or want. Believe that if they need or want it, they are already one with it, they already have it. Then it is up to them to be allowing, open and receptive. It can be right there, ready to manifest in their experience, but as long as they are not allowing it in, they will never get it.

We are all already one with whatever it is we desire. There is nothing between us and our desire except ourselves. For the longest time I believed I had to earn money. I had to work hard for it. That this was somehow admirable and right. This is complete and utter bullshit! It keeps me from the things I desire. How many people work hard all their lives for some ambition or goal, but never reach it? Probably almost everyone who has ever lived. This is carrot-on-a-stick living, and I for one choose to no longer live that way.

When I wanted to go and see Wayne Dyer here in Portland, my earning and hard work beliefs had me helping a couple move two large U-haul trucks over an 8 hour drive away. I accomplished my goal, earning just enough to go. But my motivation for helping these people was all wrong. I see now I was looking to the money I was earning helping them move to pay for the tickets I desired. This sort of confrontational, grasping attitude towards those we purport to help causes them to shrink away from us. We are taught that the loudest bird gets the worm. We are taught we have to speak up and claim what is ours, what we have earned, what we have a right to. We have to stand up for ourselves. But it is all wrong.

I know now that it would have been far, far better if I had helped them out of a true desire to help them, with no goal of earning something I desired through them. If I had just helped them, as long as a genuinely wanted to, as long as it flowed in my life to do so, and not even thought about money or payment. If we act with a generosity of spirit and a true heart of service, most, if not all, people will respond generously. There may be some who would take advantage.

But here is the thing, you can’t be hurt or offended by that if you are not looking at someone as a means to an end, as the source of your supply. When you help someone because you genuinely care and want to help them, whatever they do is ultimately irrelevant. If you can stop looking to them as the source of your supply, you can have faith and trust that the Universe is looking out for you, and will provide.

Furthermore when you work for someone you are usually working for the intermediary, money in this case. Money is not what you desire. There is an item you desire, a circumstance or a situation. Money is a means to an end, that is all. What use is money as food, clothing, or anything else? Maybe its a good fire starter. But it has little physical use, you are always trading it in exchange for something.

I put distance between myself and the ticket I wanted to go and see Wayne Dyer. I believed I had to earn money to buy it. I believed I had to work hard to earn that money. The reality I created for myself was exactly what I believed. I had to earn the money, just enough for the tickets, and I had to work hard for it too. If I knew then what I know now I would have focused on the tickets, not the money to buy them. I would have seen this couple I helped as one possible channel my Abundance could flow through from the Universe.

But I would not look to them as the Source of that Abundance. By not looking to them to be the Source of my Abundance, I would have been able to genuinely help them, and I would not have been attached to them paying me enough to buy the tickets. Look at the word I keep using, even now. Enough. Just enough. I limit myself even now, relegating myself to enough, rather than Abundance.

The point is I would have been genuinely helping them, motivated more by love instead of a goal, and this would have created more of an opening for generosity. Maybe, just maybe, I could have gotten the ticket I wanted and had a lot of money to spare. Maybe I could have accomplished my desire to rent a room in Portland over the weekend. Maybe I could have talked longer to that woman I met at Red Robbin, gotten her number, took her out on a date.

There is a world of possibilities there I closed myself off from because I was focused on earning money, earning enough money to buy a ticket. Because I believed that there was a separation between me and my desire, and that I needed an intermediary, money, to bring my desire to be. Instead of simply wanting the ticket, and allowing myself to have it in the next moment. Or the same moment.

Here’s the kicker… The stuff that makes up everything, you, me and the entire Universe, is infinite. Because at its Source it is energy. Infinite energy, that never dies, it only changes form. So even if every man, woman and child on earth all of a sudden got everything they ever needed or wanted, had every desire granted, it would not deplete anything. The economy may take a hit, sure. But there would still be more to go around as needed and wanted. The Source of everything can never be depleted, and it works outside of physical space and time.

Something I came to understand some time ago, even if every beautiful red-haired virgin on the planet were married or in a relationship, if I wanted one, and was able to simply allow the Universe to provide, it could, in the moment of my desire, bring a child into the world sometime in what I would perceive as my physical past, who could grow up, become a woman, meet me and be the person I share my life with. Doesn’t that idea just boggle your mind?

If more is desired it is provided, instantly. There are no limits in the realm of the energetic which is outside of physical space and time! There are no limits, period! It is only in the physical that we see any constraints, but these are artificial creations, and have nothing to do with our true nature, with our essence, which is the Source of everything in the entire Universe.

It is time to free yourself of these beliefs of lack and limitation. Time to free yourself of these beliefs of earning and hard work as the only legitimate way to manifest things into you physical experience. Time to stop seeing yourself separate from whatever it is you desire. Time to stop believing in that separation, and any need for any sort of intermediary. If you want something, you can have it. You do not need to trade anything for it. If you want something it is yours, instantly, and this does not happen at the expense of anyone else. If you want to go somewhere you are there, the instant you wish to be there.

All forms of lack and limitation exist only in the belief of them. It is really as simple as that.


I was brushing my teeth as I realized something else. Asking is also a form of separation between you and what you desire. If you ask for it, it implies you do not have it. Asking also becomes an intermediary between you and your desire. I think the right process here is to claim it. As you are already one with everything and everyone, simply claim whatever it is you desire. As if it is already yours, has already been provided, and now you are simply claiming it for yourself. I think Emmet Fox talked about this approach in, “Stake Your Claim.”

About Evil

I have been reading “The Case for Reincarnation” by J. Allan Danelek – just went through chapter 9. So far in this book it is almost scary how similar this author and I think. We have been right on the same page pretty much from page 1. But in this chapter the author strayed by saying evil exists.

Mr. or Mrs. Danelek, if you are reading this, let me paint a scenario for you. God clicks his fingers together and all the humans on earth are whisked away somewhere temporarily. So now we have an entire planet returning to its natural state free of humans. Now imagine you were observing this place from somewhere. Look for evil. See if you can find it. That’s right, you can’t. Because evil does not exist.

OK, no addressing everyone collectively. You may be thinking, “but wait, wasn’t what so-and-so did evil?” OK bear with me a sec because I need to clarify something. Evil does not exist as a natural state of the physical realm at least, and more than likely the spiritual realm, which may be, as the author of the aforementioned book posits, merely two sides of the same coin. In that sense evil does not exist.

However evil manifests on the physical side of existence through the perceptions and actions of humans. Evil is a purely human creation. There is no Satan (Josh would be surprised to hear me say this) as the ultimate source of evil or sin. There is a Satan, a tulpa created by Christians with limited powers based on the collective beliefs of those who believe in him. But he is not the source of evil. Evil is and always will be a human perception.

Say someone comes up and stabs you to death. You may die thinking what that person did was wrong. The people standing around you may see this person as a murder. But maybe in his or her mind they are getting vengeance for some wrong you committed, or maybe they watched you kill someone last week, or perhaps they are suffering from PTSS and are reliving a fierce battle in some war. Whatever the case may be, they do not see what they are doing as evil or wrong.

This is what I mean. Whatever you point to on the earth, even to me for what I just said about Satan (thereby challenging the Christian belief system) and call evil, it is only evil for you and anyone else who feels/thinks/perceives/believes in a similar way. If you are a Christian you may point to me and say, “Satan made him say that!” or “Satan deceived him!” assuming of course that I could never say such things on my own, that I had to be inspired or led to say them by some ultimate source of evil.

However as far as I am concerned I am speaking out of love. When we humans collectively realize that we created the idea of evil, and thereby we can destroy it, we can rid ourselves of these chains that have bound us for so long, as well as create a beautiful utopia for society.

There is only one fly in the ointment, for the following thoughts presupposing reincarnation is true. If this is so then it may very well be that we have to experience evil in order to appreciate good. But I don’t think that it is necessary or any integral part of the physical side of life. I think what’s going on here is more akin to a roll of dice. In the spiritual realms I assume there is only love and light. As such the physical realm is needed as a place where evil may manifest, or is likely to manifest.

I think what happens is that a soul, on coming back into the physical, finds a couple that, the soul being aware of all life possibilities for the child, has one life possibility the soul wants to experience. But it is not definite. One of the possibilities could be abortion, and the soul could have been desiring another life entirely. Another possibility would be to experience great evil, either to perpetuate it or experience it, so that the soul can understand it. Assuming the gamble pays off the soul learns what evil is, dies (or is killed as some sort of villain) and goes back to the spiritual side to rest and, perhaps after some time, choose another experience.

This all ties in very well with a, I hate to use the word, belief I have, that there is no fate or destiny. Fate and destiny can not exist in a world of true free will. Any more that oil and water can mix together. There is a likely path, thousands of them in the course of a life, and among those perhaps an ideal path, or perhaps certain paths become idea at certain times in a person’s life. But the soul is along for the ride, perhaps hinting, nudging, helping to direct in whatever way towards the path the soul wants to experience, which may or may not be the ideal path, but ultimately the personality, as the author refers to it, decides what happens.

Likewise there is no karma or balance. Only consequences for ones choices and actions. Not that some force is judging or punishing. Simply that if you decide to hit your hand with a hammer (for example) it will hurt. So we are entirely free agents, determining for ourselves what our lives will be, either subconsciously or consciously.

What do you think?