Our Mindsets Are Our Greatest Obstacles To Our Abundance

In a little over a month my parents and I will be homeless. Today I learned that one of the families staying here has found a place. I celebrated this, and shared it with my dad. I thought it would encourage him. I mean, if they could find a place, so can we. But he is stuck in a mindset that you have to have money to buy a house. The fact that this couple had money enough to purchase this place seems to confirm that for him. He has no money set aside. I tell him about Downpayment Assistance, but it is like he doesn’t hear me. He usually starts in with his other mind-rut – his credit history.

As we travel around the area I see houses being built. I see subdevelopments that are filled with occupied houses. And I know that statistically speaking, not all of these people had money enough for a down payment. I know of one man who is renting a place, without a job, without any known income, and with a drinking/substance abuse problem. HE has a roof over his head. I point this out to my dad, but it goes right OVER his head. If it isn’t the chestnut, the same old saw, of this man having money from the sale of a house its this man has better credit.

It occurs to me that the people all around us are in a variety of monetary situations. Some have no money at all and no employment. But some of those folk are living happily in their own houses, while others from this same group are living in a homeless camp somewhere. On the other side of the coin there are those with plenty of money and/or a good paying job, who are living on the side of the road, even as some of that same group are enjoying nice new houses. The only thing separating these people is their mindset – the set of their minds. What they allow themselves to have and what they believe they deserve. That’s it.

I honestly don’t think money plays as big a role in getting a house as we are generally programmed from childhood to believe. There are people living in penthouses in New York who do little if any work, and it isn’t because they have a trust fund or come from money. Just as their are artists, dancers and singers working two jobs as they try to get their foot in the door. I am certain that as long as my dad doesn’t honestly and truly believe that he deserves a house, as long as he doesn’t allow himself to have one at any level in his mind, he will not be able to get a house. His fate, and by proxy, mine, is sealed, were I to cast my lot in with his.

I can’t do that anymore. I honestly believe I deserve my own house, my own space. I have worked hard all my life, and if that was any real metric whereby eligibility were granted, the scales would have to be tipped in my favor. I also want one, and am doing my damn best to allow myself to have one. Even without any income – only the future possibility of becoming a well-paid YouTuber, the goal I am working towards right now. The problem is I am infected by the same mind-virus, the same meme, as my father. I contracted the fucking thing from him. I caught myself later in the day, just a little earlier this evening, thinking about how I lost a subscriber at YouTube and doubting that I will ever make it as a YouTuber.

I realized it then and I see it very clearly now that as long as I do not allow myself to “have” success at YouTube, as long as a doubt myself and do not feel I deserve it, or am worthy of it, I will never have it. Ever. I am doomed to fail – in fact I failed before I even got started! I was advised to start a GoFundMe for my folks. Try to raise money to get them a house. I see now that it is useless for me to do so if I continue to think, basically that, “well I can put it up but I don’t think it will do any good.” If I put it up with that mindset, that belief, it will not succeed. That’s all there is to it. I am sabotaging myself and my parents.

I won’t belabor this but to put it bluntly I don’t think I will survive this. I have been fighting this bullshit for a long time now. I can’t seem to get out on the other side. I can’t seem to cure myself of this disease, free myself from this thing that both holds me down and keeps me back. But there is one thing I can do, maybe the only thing of any value I have ever done, and that is to warn you. Buying into the beliefs that were programmed into you since childhood by your authority figures, parents and religion is a dead-end road. You are marching a straight and narrow road from the cradle to the grave. You will have been born only to live a miserable life and then die. It doesn’t have to be that way, but must be as long as you believe it.

Now this may not be a belief you are consciously aware of. How often have you listened to the things you tell yourself? I mean REALLY LISTENED? Is your self-talk supportive or not? Friend or foe or frenemy (foe in disguise.) Are you allowing yourself to do the things you care about or have a passion for? Are you of the mindset that there is only so much to go around and you have to get yours before someone else does, or do you believe in an abundant universe? What are you allowing yourself to experience and to have? A house? A happy marriage? Work that speaks to you or that you can at least tolerate? Do you have money enough to live the kind of life you want to have? How do you feel when you look at something you want and say, “I now allow myself to have this, or something like it.” What kind of people have you surrounded yourself with? If you express some risk you want to take, do they support you or try to stop you?

Don’t wait until it is too late, until those old mindsets, those old habitual patterns, are so deeply engraved that you just can’t find a way out. Break free, rock the boat, shake yourself loose. Stop following everyone single-file to the cemetery. Stop doing what others tell you, stop doing what others want you to do, stop living for others. I have said it before that if you do not fill your cup, you will have nothing to give anyone else. You gotta find your path, and you will know when you are on it, because your old beliefs, your old ways of thinking, will just fall away. You will find real and lasting happiness there. Your life is not something meant to be endured. It is meant to be enjoyed. You are here to experience life and all the Universe has to offer joyfully. Open yourself up to that idea.

The only thing standing between you and something you want are your beliefs and mindset – the habitual way you think. Change your mind and you change your life. Different ways of thinking open up different experiences and options. What are you allowing yourself to experience and to have? Is it what you really want, deep down inside? Take a moment and listen to what that still small voice inside is whispering. The sooner you get started, the easier it will be to choose a way of thinking that supports you and opens you up to new possibilities. You know what happens when you stay entrenched? Literally in a trench? You will either starve to death or you get taken out by enemy fire. Nobody who has ever stayed in a trench, never leaving, has survived.

I fucked up. I tried and quit piano, though I enjoyed it. I tried and quit singing, even though deep inside I want to sing, I want to free my voice without fear or shame. I tried drawing, and despite the fact I have proof I can draw, I still don’t consider myself to be any good at it. I tried mapping for games I enjoyed playing, and quit when I compared my work to others and came up short. I tried programming and couldn’t stick with it. I keep picking up writing and dropping it again. I start a story and quit a couple of chapters in. I tried to meet someone to share my life with, and have long since given up. In fact I went through my entire time at college without really socializing at all – or even trying. I am running hell-bent at YouTube because it is my last hope, and I think it actually might be.

DO NOT follow my example! DO BETTER! Your happiness, your life, literally depends on it!

The Circle 29 – God’s Will Is Your Will

God’s Will Is Your Will

In this episode of The Circle I share something that blew my mind, that God’s Will is actually Your Will, that they are one and the same.

The materials I am drawing from are Claim Your Power by Mastin Kipp: https://www.amazon.com/Claim-Your-Power-Journey-Dissolve/dp/1401949541/

Also Ramtha, The White Book by JZ Knight: https://www.amazon.com/Ramtha-White-Book/dp/1578730457/

Retiring the Self-Hypnosis Page!

When I was studying self-hypnosis the generally accepted view is that there is something called the subconscious mind, and, like an iceberg, it sits below the surface of the mind with the conscious mind on top.

I have said that I hold my beliefs loosely. I subscribed to this one for a while, but I have come to see it leaves me powerless to change certain things in myself relegated to this subconscious part of the mind.

Maybe powerless is too strong a word, but I don’t think so. If you believe in this paradigm, it means that you are essentially stuck with something called programming that you received from your authority figures as a child.

It means you are left, helpless, with all these undesired and unwanted beliefs that you have to dredge out when you come to the point in your life when you want to be free of them. But the truth is you were never trapped in the first place..

It leaves this huge morass of beliefs, feelings, programming and thoughts that you aren’t even aware of. You have to do things like self-hypnosis to access these.

I no more believe now in this idea of any process to get at hidden things in my mind than I do in religious rituals for religious experiences. To quote Alan Watts, “It’s putting legs on a snake.”

My current belief, which is still developing, is that there is no part of the mind I can not easily and readily access. There is no subconscious or unconscious mind. There is no mass hidden just under the surface of the mind.

There is only the mind, and the mind serves as the intermediary between your brain and your Source. There may be things in your mind that you are not be aware of. But there is nothing hidden from you. Forgotten or misplaced maybe, but not hidden.

There are beliefs that you have which are based on thoughts you thought for a long period of time. These become beliefs or habitual thought patterns. So in this way some of your thinking may slip in under your awareness radar.

But the point is that you can become the silent observer, the watcher, and you can shine the light of your awareness anywhere you like inside your mind. Your mind is only consciousness, nothing else.

So the self-hypnosis page is going away for now. Self-hypnosis can still be used I think as a way to shine the light of your awareness inside your conscious mind, see what’s in there. But I have to overhaul the whole thing and some of the processes.

As I am also working with the idea that I can project that consciousness wherever I like, I would like to tie everything together with astral projection and lucid dreaming. That will come at some date in the future, but I am setting no intention for it at this time.

Instead I will continue to share insights, poetry and teachings. Also, now that I nearing 100 subscribers, it is time for some creative writing! I have been itching to do this for a while. So expect a new section for that soon!

If you want the text from the self-hypnosis page contact me, here or at the Dao Bums forums, and I will send it to you.

The Problem of Positive Thinking

I am watching a video with Eckhart Tollle and Wayne Dyer. A question about positive thinking has come up. I recall that I talked with someone about this, maybe wrote about this. I feel compelled to write.

In the story of my life, in that aspect of me called ego, identified with my form, when I was a Christian and that was a part of my identity, I was extremely depressed. I had spells of rage, probably because of that depression. I blamed God for all the things He didn’t do or provide. I isolated myself in my room, and glued myself to a computer screen. It should be obvious that in such a state I was not thinking positively. I am trying to think back, to remember how I was then. Because there was no thought that I was thinking positively or negatively. I just thought however it was I thought. I think I went from one thing that made me happy to the next. Constantly looking for things that made me feel better. But I never really thought about how I thought until now.

There came a time, years later, when I started to deal with my thinking. When I addressed my anger. My parents had started a home business, actually I think the first time was my dad. I had gone from living with my family, to living alone in an apartment, to moving in to my grandmother’s house. There, in 2008, things started to change.

Sometime after that my dad started his first business and something compelled me to work on the way I was thinking. I was tired I guess of thinking like I had been. I was tired of being angry and breaking my things. I found that book on lucid dreaming and became aware of other kinds of books outside the fantasy or science fictions stories I liked to read. I think my first positive thinking type book was Maxwell Maltz’s, “Psycho Cybernetics.” Found Dale Carnegie after that I think. The focus became using visualizations to change the way I felt and thought. I had a script for depression where I worked my way out of a swamp, climbing a mountain to a viewpoint at the top. I had a script for taking all the energy of anger and moving it from a volcano to a power plant.

I started training my parents, trying to get them to think differently too. That became a habit. If I caught them saying something negative I would bring their attention to it. I think it has had an effect, however, if you drive at a nail long enough, and if the nail is strong enough, and if you are strong enough in your pounding, you can put that nail through anything! But the change will be exterior, forced.

While I can not say for certain, my parents never made the interior adjustments, of their own volition, to effect any lasting change in them. I do not criticize or judge, I am commenting on what I observe, and this is what I think I see. They might catch themselves saying something negative every once on a while, but as far as I am aware their way of thinking is almost the same as it was all those years ago. However that is their game, their path, the things they have to choose then decide to work through. It is none of my business, I am now aware of this habit in me of correcting them, so I am making the needed changes in myself so that I no longer do that.

Just a few years ago I became aware of Advaita and teachers like Jeff Foster. Things changed again. I became aware of something called duality. The material I had been reading up to that point, and from that point to now, helped me to realize something important about positive thinking. It was brought home when I tried to read something by Robert Schuller. I got a few pages in and I realized how immature this way of thinking is.

The problem with positive thinking is that it is another extreme. If you think negatively, you are at one extreme. If you think positively, you are at another. Somehow you have to be able to allow yourself to feel how you feel, and think how you think, no matter to which extreme your thoughts may go. Part of loving and accepting yourself as you are, which I learned from Louis Hay, is loving and accepting how you are thinking, right now, in this moment.

Jeff Foster taught me the process of Admit, Allow and Accept. As I recall, Thich Nhat Hanh taught me No Attachment, No Aversion, along with Sunyata (Emptiness), Alakshana (Signlessness) and Apranihita (Aimlessness) AKA the Three Concentrations. That paper, put on my ceiling, so many years ago, remains today, though other papers have been added or taken away during my growth process. I likened it to Jesus’ teaching of, “Consider the lilies…”

The Highest Alignment or Highest Vibration state, to use what I am learning from Abraham and Seth, is to apply these to your thought processes. Allow yourself to think freely. Admit whatever it is you are thinking. Accept these thoughts. I see this as embracing them and then letting them go. Do not become attached to them, or adverse to them. If you try to control your thoughts, from being negative to positive, it means you are automatically  and judging them. Ultimately you are criticizing and judging yourself. You can not love and accept yourself as you are if you are criticizing and judging yourself every time your thoughts are not what you want. You can not love and accept others until you love and accept yourself!

Effort or force is not required. Changing the way you think requires effort, it is something you try, so it becomes something you do. Drawing from what Tolle has taught me, you are cementing yourself in time. There is this idea you will be happy, at some point in the future, when your thoughts are positive and completely under your control. So you will never be happy. Happiness becomes a carrot on a stick for you.

“Consider the lilies how they grow: they toil not, they spin not…” The Three Concentrations. Rowing your boat downstream. All meaning the same thing. The solution is not found in the effort. You can’t get there from there. Trying to make yourself think one way or another will bring more of the thoughts you were working so hard against. Better to work with where you are now, at this point in your life.

At this time you may be completely oblivious to these words. Your mindset just doesn’t allow you to become aware of teachings like this until you are ready. But if you have found these words, and are reading them, then you are ready for them. If not, they will be right here, in this form, or somewhere else, from someone else, in another form, waiting for you.

The Abraham teachings show us how our thoughts affect how we feel. If we feel bad, we are likely thinking bad thoughts. If we feel good we are likely thinking good thoughts. The practice then is one of awareness, just as Tolle and others teach. Learning to become aware of how we feel so we know how we are thinking. Learning to become aware of our thoughts. Then applying the Admit, Allow and Accept process to what we are thinking.

We no longer fight our thoughts and the way we are thinking. Instead we become martial artists with our mind, and use its power against it. Not in an effort to defeat the mind. The mind is not our enemy. That is our interface between who we really are and our brain. But to effortlessly free ourselves from the control of the mind. From being controlled or directed by our thoughts. From our thoughts throwing us from one extreme to the other. Because remember our thoughts affect how we feel. So freeing ourselves from the mind’s control allows us to enter a place or state where, as the Advaitist’s teach, we become the ocean, not something tossed about on the waves. Or to use Tolle’s words, we become an aware presence.

In short, there are still thoughts, and there are still feelings from these thoughts, but we are no longer attached or engaged with them. They no longer have the power over us as they once did. We can allow our thoughts and feelings to come and go, being fully aware and conscious of them. We can use whatever is coming and going through our awareness as a sort of compass to see where we are at at any given moment in time. If we have something we would like to accomplish, something to manifest, we can track down any resistant thought to its habitual pattern or belief, then apply the Admit, Allow and Accept process to that, releasing that belief and letting it go. Seeing it like a visitor that has been with us for many years, but now it is time for them to head home, so we gently usher them out the door.

The positive thinking teachings have their place. If you are mired in the other extreme of negative thinking, as I was, you can use that to dig yourself out. But just remember that it is only another extreme. It places you firmly in the grip of duality. Because where there is negative there must be positive, and where there is positive there must be negative. If one mind state exists, the possibility of the other mind state also exists. One state reinforces the other. The more focused we are on the mind state we do not want, the more of that mind state we will have and find others around us have. The practice is one of no attachment, no aversion, to either mind state.

This also means you will be more natural or whole. This is very hard to explain, but there is a sort of artificiality to the positive thinking people. Everything has to be positive all the time. There is no room for things associated with negativity. Someone dies, you have to be positive. You can’t feel sad about it. You loose your house, you have to think positive! Now death is not something to be sad about, still it is the tendency of most humans to mourn.

Anything negative that happens can be seen as a blessing, an opportunity or a chance tor practice. You can’t utilize the whole feeling and thinking spectrum if you are intently focused on one extreme. If you are able to allow negative thoughts, and release the need to have only positive thoughts, you free yourself to feel what you feel and think what you think. You can be Authentic and Honest with yourself. You allow yourself to love and accept yourself as you are, no matter what you are feeling or thinking.

This is what Abraham calls moving downstream. Trying to think in one extreme or the other is rowing upstream. You can’t get there from there. You have to turn the boat around and go downstream. You have to be able to take whatever feeling or thought arises, in each moment, and allow yourself to feel that, to think that, yet at the same time not become attached to it or identify with it, also not to be adverse to it, or run away from it. In this way you use the mind’s energy of producing constant thoughts against itself by freeing yourself of your normal tendency to be caught up in whatever yo are feeling or thinking. If you not longer are attached to or identified with your feelings and thoughts, they no longer have power over you. You are free to choose your response to any feeling or thought that arises.

The kind of thinking you have is not important. But becoming aware of your thoughts on a moment-by-moment basis and learning how to work with them is.

The Myth of the Subconscious or Unconscious Mind

I am about to present to you a radical new idea. That your subconscious or unconscious mind is a myth, a figment of your imagination, a construction of man. It is passing the buck, making excuses and not taking responsibility for the way you think, the beliefs you hold and the actions you take as a result. In effect you are saying, “It’s not my fault, it’s just who I am.” Imagine a murderer, holding up his bloody knife over a corpse, saying that! If the subconscious or unconscious mind truly did exist then we would have to set murders, rapists and con men free, because they are innocent, because it is this part of themselves that drove them to do what they did, they were merely unwilling spectators, if they are to be believed!

No more excuses! It is time to take responsibility for who you are and what you do! It is time to throw out this meaningless construction and take charge of your mind! It is time to become aware and conscious of your thoughts, your beliefs and to take action! Just as you create your reality, you create who you are and you choose what you do. You choose what to believe, what programing from your childhood you keep and ultimately what actions you take. If you can create your own reality you can create one where there is nothing but a fully conscious mind that is completely aware!

I am throwing out this idea that I have, or there exists, anything such as a subconscious or unconscious aspect of myself or anyone else. Wayne Dyer chooses to call this the, “Habitual Mind.” I choose not to have any aspect of myself that I am not completely responsible for. In other words I won’t blame wrong thinking, wrong habits, wrong programming on my “Habitual Mind” anymore than I will blame it on my subconscious or unconscious mind. As far as I am concerned my reality is that I only have a conscious mind. That I am aware of my beliefs, habits and programming and as a result I know what I need to change. I then do whatever I need to do or become whatever I need to be to change these. I choose complete consciousness in waking life and as I sleep, dreaming or leaving the body in an astral projection, whatever the case may be. I choose to be fully concussions in my dreams and put myself in the driver seat, hands on the wheel. I can enjoy the ride or take control at any time. The same for when I astral project. The same for when I wake up and move around the physical plane.

People say that they must have some kind of subconscious or unconscious mind because when they sleep they are not in control of their dreams. Yet if you have ever lucid dreamed, as I have, you know that you can take control. So you are only subconscious or unconscious during sleep because you believe you are. You buy into the common belief of mankind, as a result you reinforce that reality for yourself and others. Whether you choose ti be consciously aware of it or not you remain unconscious during sleep by choice.

If you choose to relegate aspects of yourself to your subconscious or unconscious mind you give away your power to become conscious. You reinforce this idea of a subconscious or unconscious mind not only for yourself but also for the rest of humanity! You, in effect, contribute to a reality of people, including yourself, going around on auto-pilot, staying stuck in the same circular flight patters of wrong beliefs, wrong programming, wrong thoughts and wrong action, instead of freeing yourself and them up to jet up into the blue skies of conscious thinking, where wrong beliefs and thoughts can be challenged, wrong programming can be changed, and a different, better and Truer course of action can be taken! Why on earth would you willingly leash yourself to the unmoving pole of your beliefs, programming and thoughts instead of setting yourself free?

You create your reality, you choose the actions you take in it, and you decide whether or not you will be fully conscious during your existence in the physical plane or if you will continue to reinforce wrong beliefs, programming and thoughts by relegating these aspects of your thinking to some mythical unconscious or subconscious part of yourself. You choose whether or not you are a robot, acting on its programming, or a man, able to make conscious, fully aware decisions. Are you willing to take control and responsibility of your life, for your life, or not?

Are you a smoker, enslaved by your habit to the cigarette, or are you ready to free yourself? I guarantee that if you smoke you pull that coffin nail out of the pack without a second thought. In other words you don’t think about it. But what would happen if each time you placed your fingers around one of those horrible things you took a moment to actually think about what you are doing. Listened to the thoughts going on in your head. Paid attention to the beliefs and programming that have brought you to the place where you are considering taking this thing out of its package and having, “Just one more…”? What would happen if each time you puled out your box of cigs you practiced being fully aware of your beliefs, programming and thoughts and the action you are considering to take? The same thing applies to that can of beer or bottle of booze, as well as to the syringe you have been injecting between your toes, or the pipe you have been placing between your lips.

My guess is that before long you would draw your hands away from the cigarette, fold the cover back over the top of the package, and resist smoking. That this would snowball and soon you would be throwing out the entire pack. And if you practiced this in other aspects of your life, such as your job or marriage, you would find a root cause of why you were smoking in the first place, and you would change that as well. Before long you would find yourself happier, healthier and enjoying a much better life!

It all starts with a simple decision to take responsibility for who you are and what you do. To stop relegating things to this human constructed myth of the subconscious or unconscious mind. To instead become fully conscious of your beliefs, programming, thoughts and the resulting actions you take. To then choose to release and let go of those wrong beliefs, to change that wrong programming, and to actively and consciously choose to think better thoughts.