This body
is too old,
this life,
is too long

for this young spirit.

My soul
may be old,
my heart
is lined with scars,

but my spirit is young.

It belongs to a man
who never really enjoyed
his childhood
and the process

of growing older.

I want to carve into
this aging flesh,
let the life-blood flow out
into the ancient earth,

releasing my young spirit.

I want to teach
my soul a lesson,
that pain should never
be inevitable,

that suffering should never
be prolonged,
that by the time the flesh,
has reached its middle years,

some happiness
must have been found,
some enjoyment of life
must have been experienced.

You can not scare me
with threats of hell,
I am in hell,
with every breath I take.

I yearn to be happy,
I yearn to be free.

If i can release this pain
with something sharp,
a blade, a piece of glass,
draining it from me…

when it is finished,
I shall finally find
happiness and freedom.

Hope is dream
of the pitiful,
the dirt a starving man eats
to fill his empty belly.

To dream
is to be delusional.
Better to accept
your awful fate

then to fight it.

Something To Think About

What I am about to say has been inspired by Mike Dooley’s book, “Manifesting Change.” I am directing it primarily, or maybe especially, at Christians. My goal, as always, is to pry open your mind, as much as you are willing to allow me to.

My intention is that you learn to think for yourself, that you stop believing in something just because that was the way you were raised or because you have always believed it, and you stop assuming that just because you believe something that everyone in your life has told you is the truth that it may not necessarily be so.

I wrote this down yesterday in my notebook. I will from here on quote mostly from what I originally wrote…

If, “…in the beginning was God…” then, before the creation of the time and our world only God existed! Everything was God, only God. No other materials could exist to work with.

That means everything that Christians believe God created, that they refer to as God’s Creation, has been made from God. Period. End of story.

That means everything and everyone are all parts or aspects of God. As we are all a part of God, we are all connected to each other, this world, and God. God is our Source of being.

In this way then we are, literally, God, or, if you prefer, individual manifestations of God.

These statements may have made you uncomfortable. That is good. It is never good to be comfortable with your beliefs, faith or religion. These should always, without exception, be questioned. Otherwise you risk making them a part of your identity. As I have learned personally, if you leave come to a place where you have to leave the beliefs, faith or religion you have identified with behind, it can be an excruciatingly painful experience.

Let us take these statements a little further…

If we are a part of God, or an individual aspect or manifestation of God, or are God, then, ultimately, we can do no wrong. So why do we believe in karma, judgment and sin? Why would God eternally condemn or punish itself?

We can do no wrong, because even if we did the worst thing imaginable and killed hundreds of people, we have only killed hundreds of individual aspects or manifestations of God. When you cut yourself and bleed, you kill hundreds, maybe thousands, of cells and things that live in your blood. Are you guilty of their murder? How could God be guilty of killing physical aspects and manifestations of itself? Also keep in mind that in death only the body dies, so the real person experiencing life through that physical form is unaffected.

Death is only a changing of focus, a transition. It is no worse than taking off a pair of glasses. God is experiencing life through you, thorough your physical form, as an individual aspect or manifestation of itself. Your body, ultimately, is nothing more than a pair of glasses, or, if you prefer a sort of “real world” virtual reality helmet. God is experiencing itself through you, through your unique physical perspective.

If death is the worst thing we could think of, and we can see now that it is death only pf a physical form, not the real person (Christians certainly believe this) then how could we, how could God, condemn itself to hell? This is for the worst offenders according to the perspective of most people. If God would have no reason to condemn the worst offenders to hell, why would it condemn the least offenders, say those who simply chose not to be Christians?

We will stop here. I have given you a lot to think about. Be with whatever it is you are feeling right now. Feel what you feel, be authentic and honest with your feelings. They will guide you as you think about what you have read here.