7-7-2019 – Independence Day

So July 4th has come and gone. I think back, and still can’t believe I am a 2018 graduate! It seems so long ago, almost like it happened to another person. But no, this was the major event of my life last year.

I have been helping a lady I occasionally work for these last few days. The work itself hasn’t been too hard. But I have worked hard at it, and it has worn me down. I have been paid promptly and well. But so many times I have had to lock my lips shut.

The lady I work for has an, entrenched, viewpoint about the world – how things are and how things work. Some examples:

  • I should never expect anything for free. If I do I am taking advantage. Everything must be paid for – must be an exchange.
  • The world is hard – life is hard.
  • People are not inherently good or nice.

I gotta say I am FUCKING TIRED of people telling me how I am doing something wrong, or am wrong, or am bad, or don’t know something, or don’t understand something, or have no experience, or that my opinion doesn’t matter, etc. etc. etc.

I WILL NOT be browbeat into submission to someone’s viewpoints about humans, society or the world in general and at large. I ADAMANTLY REFUSE to buy into the bullshit so many people in my life keep spewin’! I CLAIM and DEMAND the right to define humanity, society and the world in general and at large as I DAMN WELL PLEASE!!! My beliefs, feelings, opinions, thoughts and viewpoints are just as valid as EVERYONE ELSE’S, regardless of age, creed, experience, genetics, species, race. etc. etc. etc.

Yes, I am not a black man and I can not really know the black man’s struggle. Yes, I am not a woman and can not really know the struggle of women. Yes I have traveled only 43 times around the sun, not 69 or 93 or whatever. But that does not mean, in any way, that I CAN NOT know, at some level, or empathize, or understand, or be sympathetic too, these things which are outside my personal experience.

It also doesn’t mean that my viewpoints are irreverent and/or worthless. I can put myself in the black man’s shoes, the woman’s shoes, the elders’ shoes. And I know things. I do not know how or why I know things, but I have long known and even understood things outside my life experience.

My point is that you can put your GODDAMN box away, because I do not fit inside of it. I am beyond and outside your definition. I am unlike anyone you have ever met or known. I am unique. Not special – unique. I don’t know that I buy into the whole specialness thing. Maybe if I was born with superpowers. But unique – HELL YES! There never has been anyone like me on the earth, and there will never be anyone EXACTLY like me after I leave it. I am the only one. And I have experienced things few other humans in history have.

I am empathetic, sensitive and maybe even a bit telepathic. I have not tried to develop any of these abilities or skills or whatever they are. And it could be that I just have a knack for reading body language, though I doubt that is it. I FEEL things, I practice listening to my gut and intuition, and I advise my parents to do the same. I KNOW things I can not trace back to any previously collected knowledge.

As before I do not say these things to boast. No. I think all I am currently experiencing in my life can be experienced by others. It only requires openness and receptivity to certain things, and I share this constantly.

I have adopted the belief that all humans are inherently good – inherently divine. No matter what someone does, that is just a role they are playing, a mask they are wearing. That is God there, under that mask, acting out that role. I have also adopted the belief that the Universe is ultimately good, that it supports me and that there can be enough for all – that abundance of all good things can be experienced by all.

And I have adopted the belief that when I ask another for something. maybe an exchange will take place, but even if I do not give them anything in return, they receive a chance to serve. The opportunity to serve is an invaluable experience – a gift that we must all be open to giving to others in our lives, especially our loved ones. We are not meant to go it alone. We are all meant to support one another in our various endeavors, in whatever way it comes naturally to use to contribute, in whatever way we desire to contribute, with our whole heart.

Part of what pissed me off these last few days is that this person I work for tells me I should pay for my shower. After all, the lady my parents are renting from likely pays for her water. But as far as I am concerned, my parents are paying part of the rent, so they have equal rights, and those rights pass down to children and grandchildren. Especially as the person they are renting from has her daughters living with her.

But this idea, that I am somehow bad for believing I have the right to drop by and take a shower for free, and that I am taking advantage, contributing nothing for this privilege – as if I should feel guilty about it – well that sets me off. Do either of this lady’s daughters pay for their shower privileges? Are either of them expected to contribute in some way for their mother letting them live there, much less take a shower there? No, absolutely not.

And even if this were one person’s reality, or even the reality of a number of people, that does not mean it must be my reality. This does not mean I have to agree or contribute, to what I shall now call a collective delusion, in any way. Who is qualified to define reality for another? Not our authority figures, not our religion, not our loved ones, not anyone. Only we are qualified to define our reality. But too many of us just abdicate this power, this right, to others. I refuse to do this – I ABSOLUTELY REFUSE!

Instead I claim my full power of choice, to define reality in whatever way I desire and to live my life in whatever way I choose. I will choose my own viewpoints regarding humanity, society and the world in general and at large. I will define my own reality.

Today I claim independence. I claim independence from anyone’s definition of reality that in any way demeans, hurts, minimizes or fails to completely support me. I claim independence from any sources of fear – whatever its source. Instead I choose love. Finally I claim independence from guilt, shame and another control device or mechanism which another may use to try and control me. I am and will remain an unbridled stallion, running freely across the plains.

Today is MY Independence Day. 

I Was Meant To Fly

I am making a declaration, a public statement. I have made a choice, a decision, tonight. I have allowed others to forge chains and bind me to the ground. I have consciously or unconsciously agreed to be bound by each chain. I have consciously or unconsciously chosen to stay bound, to stay grounded, until this moment.

I am now making the conscious decision, the conscious choice, that I will no longer allow myself to be bound, and that I no longer agree to others binding me. I declare, I claim, I choose, I decide, that I was meant to fly. I am a free spirit, I was always meant to soar and be free.

I do not know what brought me to the ground. Maybe I was born with wings, and my parents quickly “clipped” them, either not knowing any better, or following the dictates of others through societal expectations or religions, or perhaps both. I will not carry the weight of blame, fear, guilt or shame with me. I will not carry the weight of bitterness or resentment. I will not hold onto grudges. I want to feel the sun on the fabric of my wings, so I now, in this moment, release and let go of all that would weigh me down.

I acknowledge your labels, and I accept their existence. I do not resist the existence of these things, or your use of them. But I claim, I choose, I decide that your labels will no longer stick to me. That is your path, the use of these is your choice, your decision, and I leave you to it, I leave you to your path. Maybe you were born with wings like me, yet choose to stay grounded. Maybe you never had wings at all. My path, my practice, is to accept myself as I am, so that I may accept you as you are.

This is real love. Love doesn’t try to save anyone. Love doesn’t try to change anyone. Love doesn’t require anything. Love does not require sacrifices. It is not some god that must be appeased. Real love, true love for others, is the practice of allowing others to be as they are, without criticism, without judgment. Real love, true love, for yourself is to do the same. Accept yourself as you are without criticism, without judgment.

Because I love myself I can no longer allow myself to be bound to the earth, to the ground. Because I love you I understand that you may need labels. You may fear spreading your wings and flying. You may need to stay grounded. You may even need to hate me for being myself and loving myself for who I am, a free creature who was created to fly in the warmth of the sun.

Whatever it is you feel you must do, however is its you believe you must be, or things must be, or even others must be, I leave you to it. I choose, I decide, that your beliefs, your desires, your needs – all that you vehemently defend – no longer has any power over me. I agreed before, probably before I knew what I was agreeing to, that you would have this power over me. I no longer agree to this. I actively and consciously choose, I decide, that this is no longer so.

I have spread my wings. I have launched myself from the ground. I am flying now. I am feeling the warmth of the sun on my flesh. I am feeling the bite of the wind over my skin. I am enjoying the freedom I was always meant to enjoy. The freedom I was created and designed to enjoy. Join me if you wish, or stay on the ground, the choice is yours. What will you choose? What will you decide for yourself? Do you have wings or not? If you have wings, will you stay grounded or not? Will you give into fear, or will you embrace and face your fear?

I no longer claim myself to be a looser, either by my own definition or society’s. I claim myself to be a success, to be successful, to win and be a winner. However I may currently appear to those who look on me and my life, these are the last days I live this way. These are the last days I allow myself to feel fear guilt or shame.

Such clever devices you have used to slip those chains over my neck, over my feet and hands! Make me feel bad about myself, when I have no way to defend myself, when I don’t know, don’t realize that I never needed to defend or justify myself to you, then slip those chains on by using labels such as failure or looser. Whisper them into my ear as I slept, until I started repeating the lies you told me! Until I was whispering them to myself before dropping into blissful slumber, hoping the next day would be better, but of course, as long as I was chained there it never was.

This is behind me now, beneath me. I no longer believe these things, I no longer choose them or claim them for myself. Even if you were to look at my life and see that it matched perfectly some definition or label you have for me, I choose, I decide, that I will not accept it for myself. I will no longer accept any of your labels, no matter how true they may be in your perception. I will no longer allow you to apply them to me. This is my path, my practice, from this moment forward!

I claim myself to be a free spirit. I claim for myself a life I want to live. A life of abundance and empowerment. A life of freedom and flight. Whatever awaits me in the future, whatever I encounter, I will look back and read these words, and I will remember. I was born to be free, and I was created to fly.

The Circle 29 – God’s Will Is Your Will

God’s Will Is Your Will

In this episode of The Circle I share something that blew my mind, that God’s Will is actually Your Will, that they are one and the same.

The materials I am drawing from are Claim Your Power by Mastin Kipp: https://www.amazon.com/Claim-Your-Power-Journey-Dissolve/dp/1401949541/

Also Ramtha, The White Book by JZ Knight: https://www.amazon.com/Ramtha-White-Book/dp/1578730457/

Song of the Unicorn

Today I reclaim my horn
and proclaim myself
to be a Unicorn!

Whatever the truth may be,
be I Unicorn or Donkey,
I will be me!

I will be free and I will make
my life as enjoyable
as it can be!

No more hiding in Donkey’s clothes
I will polish my horn
until it glows!

I no longer care what others say
I will never again hide
my horn away!

I now embrace my horn,
and live my life
as a Unicorn!


Dedicated to Mia Michaels, author of A Unicorn In A World of Donkeys:


What “Money Is The Root of All Evil” Really Means

It is time to challenge a belief, a misperception, that many religious people, especially Christians, have about money. The Bible has multiple seemingly negative messages about it, including, “Money is the root of all evil” and “You cannot serve God and mammon (money).” Yet again religious folks, especially fundamentalist religious folks, have taken something the Bible says literally, which was never meant to be taken literally. Let’s sort this out, shall we?

Money is not the issue at all here, even though at a surface level that is what it looks like. In reality the issue is one of mindset. As I have taught many, many times, the things that have power over us only have that power as long as we give it to them. We can give things power over us primarily two ways:
1. By resisting it, which makes it stronger.
2. By “buying” its power, believing in it.

I have only begun to tug at the threads of this thing, so I do not have the entire tapestry yet. But the materialistic system is brilliantly designed. We will use an example with money to illustrate a point. Say you go into town and you see an armored truck. You know there are valuables inside. You also know there are armed guards, protective technologies and a very thick metallic shell you would have to get through to get to the cash.

From the side of those sending the trucks around to collect their valuables, there isn’t really resistance to you stealing them. It is passive only. Because if they resisted you stealing their valuables, you would then have the power. Any resistance of stealing will make the reality of things being stolen stronger. That’s just how things work. They, whoever they are, are well aware of this.

So they pass the buck, figuratively, onto you. As you see that truck, knowing what you know, the power of those things regarded as valuable in our society becomes absolute. You have to “buy in” to the value of whatever is inside, those items which society considers valuable, and once you have done this you perpetuate the materialistic system.

This is hard to grasp and put into words, but I am doing my best. Everything you see on the news, everything you are raised to believe from childhood – all of it is designed to cause you to believe in money, and to make money’s power over you absolute. This, in addition to religion, makes you much easier to control.

Why? Because if you are poor you see money as the only solution. And in some cases it is. If you need certain things, like clothing, food, medicine, etc., you must have money. By this the system is preserved. Even if you were to come into a lot of money, your mindset towards money gives it influence and power over you, so you really do become a slave to the dollar. Society raises you that way.

The only way considered acceptable and realistic to get money is to earn it through a job. Even though  there are other legal and moral ways to get money, once again you “buy into” what you have been told since birth – you really don’t have a choice, so these alternative means of acquiring money appear undependable, unrealistic and unworkable. You can’t have a house unless you have a dependable monthly income, right? No, actually that’s entirely and utterly wrong. But that is not what you believe.

This then is why the Bible says money is the root of all evil. Notice the Bible doesn’t say money is evil. You infer that money is evil because the Bible says money is the root of it. In your literal interpretation of scripture you conveniently forget to also take this part literally. According to the Bible money is the root of all evil. It doesn’t necessarily mean money is evil. I could say the virus is the root of all sickness. But a virus isn’t literally sickness. A virus only leads to sickness, and it only leads to sickness, there is no guarantee of sickness, only the possibility.

Exactly the same is true of money. Money can lead to evil, but it is not evil itself. Money is just some object we all agree to assign a value to, be it a coin or a bill or a gold nugget. It isn’t even the physical object the Bible is talking about here. What the Bible is actually warning is about is our mindset to money. The same applies to the other passage. It is all about mindset, more specifically, the things we believe in and give power to.

We humans, for all our intelligence, are incredibly stupid in certain ways. We say things like, “Guns kill.” No, they don’t. Bullets kill people. But even that is false. Neither bullets or guns kill people. You will never see a gun load itself, aim itself at someone, and then fire. Likewise you will never see a bullet float up by itself, aim at someone, and then hit them.

In fact the only way guns can kill is if they are loaded, and the people who use loaded guns do the shooting. And even that is not entirely accurate. Because in order for someone to kill another person, there has to be a mindset of killing, murder or violence. Guns can do absolutely nothing if the person holding them does not have the mindset, the mentality, to pull the trigger. AND IF THEY DO, IT DOESN’T MATTER IF IT IS A GUN, KNIFE, STICK or LARGE ROCK!

The ONLY thing we would accomplish by getting rid of guns is to:
1. Create a HUGE back market for guns and
2. Cause people who want to kill, murder or use violence to use knives.

When it comes down to it, if someone wants to kill another person, a gun only makes it easier and quicker in some ways. They will use anything, including their bare hands, if they really have the mindset to hurt and/or kill. Not only that, the only people who would obey the law and not have guns are innocent civilians who would need them if and when they are attacked. In other words, the “bad” guys will ignore the law and still have guns, and the people that needed guns in order to protect themselves from them would no longer have them.

By this we see that all gun laws are completely useless, an exercise in complete and utter futility. It is our mindset that gives these things power over us. My mindset towards guns is actually not beneficial to me. I am actually empowering those who would pass gun laws by my resistance to gun laws. The only way I could create a reality that is more positive and supportive, of a higher frequency or vibration, is to let go of all these feelings I have about gun laws. But right now, in this moment, gun laws and those involved with that side of this issue have power over me.

The exact same thing with money. Right now society would use two words to describe me. Lazy (meaning I do not have a job and therefore am not a contributing member of society) and poor (meaning I have little or no money.) It is very hard for me to have the experience of abundance and wealth I desire as long as I maintain my current mindset about money, which is what has given it power over me. My mindset causes me to be “closed off” from the abundance of the Universe, and until I “open myself”, by freeing myself of the hold money has over me, I will receive very little if anything from it.

Those who see an armored car and consider robbing it are even more under the influence of money. If they rob the armored car, they will have to use some measure of violence. In this way money is the root of all evil, this is what the Bible is telling us. The things we do for money, when our mindset towards it is influencing our actions and giving it power over us, are evil. Not evil as in literally evil. Evil in this case means harmful to us and others, negative.

Worse, if those who see an armored car consider robbing it, then do so, they make money’s influence and power over them absolute. You can only rob and steal out of a mindset of lack and limitation. By stealing the robbers would continue to have an experience of lack and limitation. They would need to steal more money, and they would be unable to stop, until they change their mindset towards money.

This is why I would not consider stealing. Not because it is bad/good or right/wrong. I could care less about that. It is all about the hold I am allowing money to have over me. A lady I occasionally worked for mentioned some bag of cash that fell out of an armored car recently. She asked me if I would keep the money. I said I don’t think I would, not if it was easily identifiable who the money belonged to.

In fact wouldn’t keep a single bill. I would if the money and the bag had no identifying information, if there was no obvious candidate from which it came parked anywhere nearby. I once picked up a wallet on the bus. I could have opened it and taken any cash inside. But I did not. I didn’t even open it. I just handed it to the bus driver. But if I am walking along, nobody around, and find a $100.00 on the ground, in the middle of nowhere, I will keep it. I would consider that to be something the Universe provided.

My reason for this is simple. I am doing my best to practice of mindset of abundance. That means trusting that the Universe will provide. I often freely give of my money, or share it. I walk a thin line between being free with my finances and being careless. Once again I am practicing a mindset of abundance. In doing these things I am taking back the hold, influence and power I have allowed money to have over me. I seek the freedom to live the life I want and to experience an abundance of all good and desirable things.

If you are seeking this as well, then you must change your mindset towards money, starting with throwing out any literal interpretation of the any holy text, especially the Bible. Just release and let go of all negative and unsupportive beliefs, feelings and thoughts you have about money. As your mindset towards money changes, its hold influence and power over you will loosen. But you have to find a way to practice you new mindset every day. It has to become as natural to you as your former mindset was. When it does you will be finally be truly free.

2-12-2016 – Defeating Those Who Oppress Us

This has been something on my mind for some time now. If there is a They, and They use Law through the Agents of the Law to Oppress Us, how do We fight back? Because fighting back is resistance and only reinforces Their strength. No riot, to my knowledge, has ever succeeded in changing anything for the better. It has only resulted in death and injury on both sides.

But the very act on the part of Them to Oppress Us is resistance to Us, resistance to Change. That gives Us strength and reinforces Our position.

We live in a world of perceived duality. Duality does not really exist, all is one. But humanity perceives opposites, those for or against, those bad or good, right or wrong, etc. For humanity, duality is real and has a real effect. That means if there is an extreme where They can send out Agents of the Law against Us, there must also exist a way to send the Agents of the Law back to our Oppressors.

It is like our Oppressors have shot a beam of light at Us. We can let it burn Us, or we can pull out a mirror and send it back to Them. Another way to understand it (a better way I think) is in terms of martial arts. We can use our Oppressors strength against them. This has to be possible, because if one extreme exists, so does its opposite.

This is where we need to focus our attention. This is how we fight against our Oppressors without resistance. We can go the route of Ghandi, go on a hunger strike. Or we can light ourselves on fire. That is one form. Or we can fight like a martial artist and find a way to turn the Agents of the Law back at Those who sent Them.

Our Oppressors found a way to turn them against Us, so we should be able to turn them back on our Oppressors. The question is how. Find the answer to that, and you have found the secret of defeating our Oppressors.

What is it that drives police officers to gather together and drive off protesters who have obviously been wronged, who are peacefully gathered, who have been wronged yet have done no wrong? What is it that turns police officers against those they should want to protect?

For the purposes of this writing, Oppression is incorrectly titled Law. The Agents of the Law are everyone from lawyers to police officers to the military. Any person or force sent out to enforce the Law. Both Law and Religion are the Tools of Our Oppressors

It is through Law and Religion Our Oppressors try to control Us, or more accurately, try to control Our behavior.

It is through Law and Religion We are told what We can and can not do, even as Our Oppressors ignore the very laws and religions They have created.

It is through Law and Oppression We adopt beliefs about what is bad or good, right or wrong. These things do not exist outside the perception of humanity.

These thoughts come after reading, “The Voice of the Master, Chapter 17 – Youth and Hope” by Kahlil Gibran.

Some Thoughts On Freedom

This morning I read the book, “Jonathon Livingston Seagull” by Richard Bach. The Muse came to me, but I was tired, so I shrugged her off. Not before making a few notes about what I wanted to say. But the end result of this will be far rougher than if I had just put my nose to the grindstone and wrote this when the Muse was with me. I tell you this so you can avoid making the same mistake. If the Muse comes to you, drop whatever it is you are doing and oblige her. Give her whatever it is she wants, usually it is just a little of your time.

In this book Richard Bach, through his character Jonathon Livingston Seagull, says, ” The only law is that which leads to freedom.” Later in the book he says, “You have the freedom to be yourself, your True Self, here and now, and nothing can stand in your way” and, “Each of us is in truth an idea of the Great Gull, an unlimited idea of freedom.” Of course we would probably use the word Source or Universe instead of Great Gull.

In Anita Moorjani’s, “Dying To Be Me” the author tells us of how she learned that for us to find our purpose, to allow it to unfold, we must be ourselves. That this is in fact our essence, and being who we are is the same as being love. In other texts I have read by Wayne Dyer, Jane Roberts and Esther and Jerry Hicks, I am told that this is really the greatest act of love I can show another. That I am not doing myself or them any favors by not being myself. Anita Moorjani battled with this to such an extreme that it caused her body to develop cancer. She kept trying to please everyone, she didn’t want to hurt anyone, so she did not allow herself to be herself.

So the kind of freedom that I am talking about here is not freedom from anything other than limitation, which includes trying to be someone else. It is the freedom of being who we are, which is love. It is in this freedom of being ourselves, allowing our purpose to unfold, that we may, like Jonathon Livingston Seagull, seek perfection. But this perfection is not the kind of perfection we normally think about, anymore than the freedom I am talking about is the same freedom we normally think about. The perfection we normally think about is some final or ultimate state. That kind of perfection leads to stagnation.

The perfection I am talking about is a state of constant improvement. Not that we are imperfect or lacking in any way. But that we came here to do something. There is something in the world we love to do, and our drive for this perfection compels us to get better and better at it for as long as we have a physical existence. To do this even when others do not agree with us or approve of our actions. Jonathon Livingston Seagull loved to fly, and became an outcast because he believed there was more to life than a constant scrounging for food. He drove himself to get better and better at flying. That was his bliss, his joy. He spent his entire physical life at it and transitioned in the process of doing it.

It is the same for us. We came here for a certain life experience. By being ourselves, allowing our purpose to unfold, we will have the life experience we came here for. In living that life, doing whatever it is that compels us, draws us, drives us, whatever it is we love and are passionate about, we are driven to master it, to become it. What is it that you love doing so much you could see yourself spending the rest of your physical life doing it, until you master it, until you become it?

This freedom, this joy of doing what you love, this perfection, none of these are found in the chasing after them. They are all the natural results of simply being who we are, allowing our purpose to unfold. We find the freedom to be ourselves in that, we discover the joy of doing what we love in that, and we find perfection of that is a natural goal. We naturally want to excel at whatever it is we love to do, we naturally want to master it, and ultimately, become it.

This is not the freedom of rights, of being able to do whatever you want. It is not a freedom anyone has to bleed and die for, it is not the “freedom” found here in America. It requires no defense or offense. There is no resistance in this freedom, only openness and receptivity. Because who you are is love, so in the freedom of being yourself, you are also being love. Love is your True Nature. You will act out of love.

In the freedom to do whatever you want you are not being yourself, you are not being love, and as a result you will not act out of love. In fact, in the freedom to do whatever you want you are in denial of yourself. You are acting against your true nature, and you will find that this freedom is fool’s gold. It looks like the real thing, but you will find yourself trapped, a slave to the need to control or have power over others, or to control or have power over your circumstances, just so you can be happy. Your desires will drive you, not love. The only freedom you will ever find from this false freedom is when you choose to be yourself.

Only in the freedom of being yourself will you be truly free. Only in doing what you love will you be truly happy.

Call To Action

This is not an article or a poem. I am reaching out to my followers and all WordPress readers. Please pass this along to whoever you think can contribute.

I am overwhelmed. Some things have come into my awareness. Simplicity seems to be the best course of action, so I have narrowed it down to 2 things:

1. I want off-the-grid living to be made 100% legal, in fact made a legal right, for all Americans. I would like to see this all over the world. But starting with America should get the snowball rolling.

2. I want all American farmers to be able to have the 100% legal right to grow whatever they desire on their land, using whatever seeds they choose. I want them to have equal access to GMO and non-GMO seeds, to organic and non-organic seeds.

Everyone that wants these same two things needs a focus object. Something like simple phrase they can utter, or a visualization they can use, whenever they hear about sustainable communities being raided by the police or swat teams, or Monsanto forcing farmers to rent and use their GMO seeds.

But here is the trick… The focus can not, absolutely can not, be on what is not wanted! If the focus is on what is not wanted, then that will reinforce the unwanted reality! You get more of what you think about.

To get more people living legally and peaceably off-the-grid we have to focus on what is wanted, off-the-grid living being the legal right of every American.

To get rid of Monsanto and GMOs, the focus needs to be on what is wanted: farmers having the legal right to choose the seeds they use, having organic and non-gmo sources, and owning those seeds. On a smaller scale, anyone living in Hawaii should be able to pick a fruit from their own garden, find seeds inside, and be able to plant them to continue their garden.

I need help with two things:
1. What should be used? It has to American friendly, so it has to be something like fast food. Easy to remember and fast to use.

2. Once we have something to use, how do we reach people with it? It has to be made accessible to millions of American citizens. Unless someone has that sort of access and is willing to let us use it, how does the common American Citizen contact the majority?

We have to put a stop to these two things. People in positions of authority that are ordering police officers to terrify and threaten American Citizens should not be in charge. They must be fired at once. Furthermore police officers need to stop acting like disciplined mobs, going out in groups against people where there is cause or reason for them to go, with not one of the officers in the group speaking up.

If the person in charge of a precinct received orders to send a swat team out to an area where no crime has ever been reported and no evidence of any drugs or weapons exists, they should question those orders. They should refuse to follow them. What is the person that sent the order going to do? Fire a whole precinct?

I find it unbelievable that the members of a swat team, some of whom probably have families themselves, would be willing to go against innocent and unarmed American families, terrifying them and violating their American rights. What is wrong with these police officers? Why is nobody questioning or speaking out?

Is your job as a police officer, and your membership in the brotherhood of blue so important to you that you would harm innocent American civilians to protect it? Where will you draw the line? Will you kill on orders, without question? Are you a human being, with the ability to make your own decisions and think for yourself, or an unthinking gun for hire, willing to pull the trigger whenever asked without question? Are you there to serve and protect or not?

Because the police officers involved in the swat team raiding the Garden of Eden in Dallas Texas violated that principle, and the rights of every American citizen there. America is a free country, not a corporate or police state. I am disappointed with these officers and those in immediate authority who sent them. You should all be ashamed of yourselves. You dishonor the badges and uniforms you are wearing. You dishonor every American solider who has ever bled and died in the name of freedom for this country.

We also have to stop Monsanto. They have taken over Hawaii, passed laws prohibited the planting of any seeds but theirs. They have threatened farmers all over the world, forcing them to lease or rent GMO seeds, which produce poor crops, and those crops can not be used to plant new ones, instead the seeds have to be leased or rented again. Monsanto is also rumored to have purchased Blackwater, a military contractor.

Even if we ignore all of that, the simple fact remains that GMOs have not been independently and properly tested to see if they are safe for human consumption. There is no way of knowing their long-term effect on human beings. In fact wheat has been genetically modified and given to the human consumer to eat for some time now, but the connections to gluten and obesity, as a result of how the wheat was modified, has only recently been made.

If we want to be able to freely and legally live off-the-grid, to choose whether or not to eat GMO foods, to grow what we want on our land using seeds we have chosen and own, we have to focus our energy on creating the reality we want. We can’t look at this as some sort of fight. If we fight or resist we again focus on what we do not want, empowering the undesired reality. Instead we have to be a martial artist with these things, using their power against them. We do that by focusing on what we want and creating that reality. But we have to have something we can use as a focus, and it has to be readily available to every American.

That’s what I need help figuring out. Do I start a Kickstarter campaign? Has one already been started? A petition? If a petition is started, how do we get the 1000 or so signatures we need to put it before government authority figures?

I have laid everything out as clearly as I can. Please pass this along to anyone you think may be interested. Please comment if you have any suggestions on what focusing device to use and how to distribute it. Always remember that we are not powerless. We are the majority. Collectively we can create any reality we desire. If we are all focusing on a reality we want, it will manifest. We don’t need to worry about the details or how things happen. We just direct our focus on what we, the majority, want.

I appreciate your help with this.

An Important Realization

I have just started reading Louise L Hay’s book, “You Can Heal Your Life.” This morning, when I woke up and couldn’t go back to sleep, I was reading and encountered her mentioning some of the things she does with her patients. To begin with, she had them title a page with, “I should” then have them list all the things that come to mind. So I did this. Not only does she have them write these things out, she also asks them to say each item out loud. So I did that too. Then as they read each statement aloud she would ask, “Why?” So, lacking anyone to answer to, I wrote down and said aloud all of my whys. Finally she would have them go through the list, and with each item replace “I should” with, “If I really wanted to, I could.” For this list, as each item is read aloud, she asks, “Why haven’t you?” So I finished my work by going through most of my very extensive list and answering this for every item I now listed as, “If I really wanted to I could.” I made some substitutions here. For past things I would add a “have” or maybe answer with, “why don’t I?” By the time I had come to a stopping point in these exercises, I had realized a few important things about myself of which I had not previously been, consciously at least, aware.

I found 5 negative feelings cropping up. In order from greatest to least they were: Guilt, Hatred, Fear, Anger and Bitterness. I also discovered some deeply embedded beliefs. As of this morning, I have begun the process on working on these inner issues.

Guilt is the biggest issue for me. In fact I believe guilt has manifested, in physical form, on my body, in the form of a skin yeast infection. It makes sense because last year, through the holidays, I add a lot of sugary, starchy foods, and I had been working very hard all year to limit my intake of these. So when I ate these foods I didn’t just eat the food in a physical sense, I was also eating guilt in an energetic sense. My body, in an attempt to make me aware of the issue, manifested this irritating, itchy, bloody (and spreading) yeast infection. I should note that I knew better. This statement, about eating the negative emotion with the food, is not my own. I learned it last year from something I had read. But, like so many truths I have learned, it slipped away into the cracks of my memory and I did not recall it.

Hatred was next. It is very specifically directed. Following that was fear, also very specific. Tied in with the hatred were anger and bitterness. I will not go into specific examples or great detail here. These are personal, inner issues. with this post I am acknowledging their existence as a first step to dealing with them.

What I will reveal however is that many of these negative emotions, if not all of them, have a common root. I think I was a little shocked to learn that in the case of someone I knew, who had recently killed herself, that I simply did not care. Ultimately she had hurt me by rejecting me, my advances, so many years ago, so anger and bitterness have kept me from loving or caring for her.

Because of that rejection and a few other examples I think I have come out of it feeling as if I am unattractive, unwanted, unlovable, undesirable – perhaps a few other uns. Tied in with some circumstances in my life surrounding my relationship with my mother, at some point I stopped loving myself, stopped caring about myself. Unfortunately it is very hard to care for or love others if you do not love yourself. This I think is the main issue, the main root of all the other issues.

I have to stop seeing myself as these uns, and instead see myself as loving, lovable, desirable, attractive, wanted, etc. I have to change my perception of myself. I have to let go of any bitterness, anger – any negative emotion I have towards others or myself. I have to forgive others and myself for any perceived wrong. I have to spend time reprogramming myself, loving myself, until the words manifest as a reality of love for myself, and at that point, or perhaps during this process, I will find that I love and care about others. Of course caring for myself, forgiving myself, will release the guilt I have been harboring, and allow this skin yeast infection to heal and clear up.

So this morning I closed my eyes and tried to visualize Katie, the girl who killed herself and who was once my friend. I only saw a sort of silhouette or white outline, I think have it one of her distinctive features when I knew her, really short hair. I also added the weight she seemed to have put on. Or maybe these things were already there, not sure. Then I started to talk to this idea or image or whatever of Katie. I will not go into details here, very personal. But I talked to her frankly and left nothing out about my feelings, what I wanted – laid it all out. I told her she had no right to kill herself. But that I loved her, cared for her, that I forgave her and hoped she was at peace. I told her that if she was a Christian when she died, and as a result ended up in hell, that she could free herself anytime she wanted. Hell was only real for her as long as she believed in it. While I did not get any specific impressions of her circumstances, or even that I was actually talking to anyone, much less Katie, for some reason I don’t feel she is in hell, and as I had now completely forgiven her I did not want her to be in any such place.

Much work lies ahead. I have to go over these notes, all these questions, ask any others that come to mind, write everything out, and suss out all these deep seated inner issues. The person I am now has nothing to do with the person I was. I have turned my back on my former Christian faith. Last night I told my parents that I was no longer a Christian. I know it must have hurt them. But I had to be clear on this, to not build up any more guilt by not telling them. So I am, in essence, reborn. I need to clean off the rest of embryonic sack from my old self and move on. I am very grateful to the universe, the Source, whoever or whatever is in charge, Hermetics call this force, “The All”, that I have been granted this extremely rare opportunity to recover from past abuse and rejection. It seems to me that too few people are able to do this, to break out of this particularity nasty trap.

When we are abused and rejected as children or teenagers we can, over time, come to a point where we hate ourselves and others. One of the especially disturbing things I discovered about myself is that I felt, at the time I wrote it (saying felt instead of feel because I am no longer spending energy in the reality of these negative feelings), in answer to, “If I really wanted to, I could love myself. Why haven’t I”, was: I was worthless, stupid, hating myself, hating life, I gave up, I quit, fuck it, I’m done, why should I, I should die, life sucks and I don’t want to. When you see these things pour out of yourself, its a real eye opener for sure! I get to spend time later asking why to these other, “I shoulds” that have cropped up. So, to say the least, there is much inner work ahead of me. But how many people actually get a chance to confront this stuff inside themselves, and furthermore, have clear direction as to what to do about it?

On other thing I made a note of was two distinct mental voices answering my various why questions. One was a little child’s voice. I picture a boy with his arms crossed against his chest, lower lip sticking out after saying, “I don’t want to!” The other was a younger man’s voice, although sometimes I could hear the child in it as well. His was the voice of hatred anger and bitterness. There was more of a maturity to what he said. I could, at the time I wrote it, probably even now, easily tell which answer came from the child and which answer came from the young man. I wonder if perhaps this idea of “soul loss” may be true, and if I might have pieces I have to go fetch from when I was a child and later as a young man. On the off-chance this was true, I invited each to me. I remembered what Robert Moss teaches his readers to do in his books. Figure out something to do that each of them would want. Easy enough. The child wants to have fun, wants to play. The young man wants to go out on a date and have sex.

So I committed myself to this year, when the money I need manifests, or if the opportunity manifests, whichever the case may be, I would go out and surf, maybe snowboard or ski, certainly play some games, maybe even sit down with a game today if I could. This should make both these previously lost aspects of myself happy. I committed to the young man that I would introduce to any female I met, follow the flow of conversation/interaction, let it lead where it will. Trust that if I am rejected, that it is not me. That this female is not the right one for me at that time. Understand that she too must have wrong perceptions and inner issues. Must feel as if she is worthless, undesirable, unlovable, or whatever the case may be. When I understand, when I realize, that others have suffered as I have, I can more easily love them. Ultimately if I am rejected it is my body that is rejected, the inner me is unfazed either way.

In this way I will not worry about age and society’s ideals of right and wrong. I will be with whoever is right for me at that time in my life, trusting that either she has attracted me into her life because this is the reality she has created for herself or what she needs at this time, or that she is the right one for me at that time. Whatever the case may be, if I flow and do not force, then it is the right course of action. I can trust that whatever happens, even if the interaction leads to sex, that this is right by a far higher authority than man’s.

So I made my commitments to each and welcomed them back into myself. Maybe more work is needed here, but for now I trust that I am a more integrated, complete soul than I was when I started these exercises, and certainly more complete then I have been even a few years ago. I have started telling myself, “I love you. You are attractive, desirable, worthy, loving and lovable.” I will continue to do so until the words become the truth of the reality I have created for myself that they represent.

I guess the most interesting thing about all of this is that I didn’t even buy this book for myself! That’s right. I bought it for a friend’s father, really my other best friend’s (I have two) father. Anyhow this man has cancer and is at home in hospice care. I had my dad drive me all the way over there to give him the book. I got a sermon instead. The man is a devout Christian. I respected his beliefs and did not push. But now, apparently, the book has found another purpose, or perhaps this was its true purpose all along.

Ultimately I have created a reality where I am a changed person, spiritually developing. Just like I have been taught in the books I have read, just like what I have personally experienced in other, minor ways, this reality I created seeks to manifest itself, and brings into my path, my life, whatever is needed to do so. Up until last night I never even considered the book as something I needed. How wrong I was! If you ever see this on a shelf somewhere, no matter what you believe, trust me, you should buy it, without hesitation.

I think this book, and perhaps others as well as some teachings, find their way into our lives right when we need them, or when someone else we are connected to needs them. Maybe someday in the near future you will open the book and begin reading. Or perhaps a friend will come over, spot the book, and begin reading. Whatever the case may be, if you see it, buy it, there is a reason its there for you to purchase.

This morning, after doing those exercises and talking to Katie, I was able to shed my first tears for her, since I received the news of her passing. Facing our inner issues and dealing with them may not be easy. We may resist. But if we can face them, let go of these negative emotions twisting us up inside, we ill find true freedom and happiness, no matter what our external circumstances may be.

I Have Stopped Growing

I don’t know some clever word for this process. I just had some insights today I wanted to share. It occurred to me that all the saints had to go through a period of time alone. Going up the mountain, out into the wilderness, away. Sadguru Jaggi Vasudev, in, “Midnights with the Mystic”, went up into the hills outside of his town. What is this process and why is it necessary for personal and spiritual growth? Well I am not entirely sure, but here’s what I think so far.

Imagine a plant or small shrub. Something that grows and spreads and is ages. Imagine putting this in a pot you feel will be roomy enough, looks roomy enough at the first for the time little plant. Time passes, the plant grows, and before long it becomes apparent that the pot is too small. The plant has to be transferred to another pot, or planted in the ground. If you fail to do so the roots will grow and take up all the room in the soil. The plant will fail to get the nutrients it needs to survive. It’s growth will be stunted, and it will, at best, become some twisted, sickly, stunted thing, and at worst, it will die.

All human children are like that young plant. In their home environment they initially have enough room to learn and grow. They can develop their personalities, gifts, traits, talents, etc., up to a point. But eventually the home environment becomes too small. If they continue to stay there, they, like the plant, will cease to grow and develop. They will either get twisted and sickly (this is what happened to me) or they will die (suicide being one way.)

When I started my process of spiritual growth I spread roots through the soil of my small home environment. I put out new branches and leaves. But now I have reached the extent of the growth I can do here. I feel the calling to leave, to go out on my own. It is time for me to go into the wilderness. Time to leave this limiting environment behind so I can continue to grow. Because for now. I am stalled, unable to go further. I can;t get post certain issues, and I can;t grow spiritually, until I leave. Gain a different perspective, maybe a little room, maybe even some help out there somewhere.

But there is something I feel parents should be made aware of here. It is becoming harder and harder for children to leave home. It is almost impossible now for someone to find a way to pursue their inherent dreams, abilities, talents, gifts, etc. This is on purpose. This is how our society was designed. It has no use for Einsteins and Renoirs. This ties in with my previous post. Our society needs only those who serve it. Mainly we are serving each other. Basically the 99% are required to tend to themselves, and serve the rich in the process.

Take some time to really think about this for a minute. How many people sacrifice their dreams to get a job and start a family? How many of us are in debt, forced to continue to work, to pay the bills? You finish school and are faced with two choices. Get into debt and go to college, with no guarantee that your investment will give you any better job that if you didn’t go, and only a small chance you will ever even graduate. Or you you just get whatever job you can find, and at some point, apply for a loan to get a house or small apartment. Some can bypass these options and join the military. All these serve to get you away from your home environment, so you have the space you need to grow and develop, but all require you to sacrifice your dreams, as well, in most cases, as your talents, skills and abilities. So while you have the needed space you can never use it!

Now what do you do after you get home from a hard day at work? Sit on the couch and watch TV. What do you see on TV? Others, the very small percentage of us that are picked, who seem to be living their dreams. They are actors, singers, entertainers of some sort. You may even know one of them. You tell yourself something like, “at least they got to do that.” The whole point here is to program you with false hope that maybe, someday, you will be one of those lucky few. But 9 times out of 10 you will never become one of them, and you will still swallow this lie your whole life, getting lost in the things you watch on TV. You never think about your situation, and as a result you never grow and develop. You become a trained, manageable houseplant, a useful cog in the machine of society.

But here’s what’s worse… You criticize and condemn those who feel that there is something more to life, including your own children! You are programmed to do so as a matter of fact. You beat and berate your children and others in your sphere of influence until they yield, their spirit broken, and they too end up just like you. You judge the men and women holding up cardboard signs on the signs of the road, or living under bridges. You never realize that they only difference between you and them, in most cases, is that the bottom hasn’t dropped out on your yet. You think you are secure, that being the wage slave you are ensures your life and freedom, but this, like everything else, is a lie. At any time you can be fired, laid off, you family could be killed in some fatal accident, someone could get sick, your debt could raise and you credit cards max out, and sooner or later, you will be living on the side of the road just like those who used to criticize.

Parents please understand this… Just because your dad or mom did it, just because you do it, does not mean that it is right or good for your children to do it! You must aid your kids in leaving the home environment, and unlike 99% of the rest of the parents of America, you must encourage their dreams, skills, talents, abilities, etc. Help them find their way, their place in the world. Their ideal path through life. Save up money for them for college, but don’t save it just for college. Use it for a business investment or whatever else you children need should they decide not to go to college. Break the cycle. Someone has to. Throw the TV out of the house. Limit the time on the internet and in the house. Get them outside, to meet people, to try different activities, to make social connections, to network. Spend this time with them in the present to invest in their future.

DO NOT barrage them with your religion or religious beliefs. Share this with them, but the keyword here is SHARE. Listen to their viewpoints. They may be similar to yours, the same, or completely different. This is OK. They are becoming their own person. They will not be your kids forever, at some point they will have to become adults. Do your best to raise them right, with the values you wish to instill in them, but be prepared to hand over the reigns and let them take control. It is THEIR life, not yours.

Those who founded this country were brilliant men and women. But unfortunately the society they designed makes the majority of its people little more than slaves. We say we are free in America. Are we? What happens to those who speak out against those in positions of power? Can you drive anywhere you want without paying for insurance or gas? Can you cross over into Mexico or Canada without a passport? Can you even head out, as I plan to, on bicycle and support yourself without money? Not really. In our society you have to work to earn money, and you have to do a disparate amount of work compared to the money you receive. Then all the money you do manage to accrue has to go to taxes, bills, car insurance and all the other things that give us this illusion of freedom. But we are not free. Our freedom only lasts as long as our money, once it is gone that is gone too. Of course we could then live off the grid. But then there is no guarantee of our basic needs: food, clothing and shelter. What loving adult would want to do that if they have children?

Think about what I have said. Break the cycle. Realize that you have to leave home to grow and develop as a person, and at any spiritual level. Understand that any children you have will have to do this too. We all have to become our own person outside and away from those who raised us. This is the truth I have realized, that I now share with you.